I received a half arsed message off my mother last week informing me that my father passed. Still don't know why they bother keeping my number given that I haven't seen or spoke to them for years. Thats one down, one to go. Would be quite interesting to actually end up outliving both of them. Something I know they both wouldn't be happy about. Both a pair of evil people tbh. I assume the lack of inviting me to any funeral was intentional but I wouldn't attend either way. The first thing I'm doing when I finally end up in hell (not that I believe in any of that religified bullshit) with 99.9% of the rest of "humanity" is throwing a lava rock at him.
It's almost fitting that my last memory/experience of him is exactly how he always was. An aggressive shite. I can rest easy knowing that me outliving him would have pissed him off. It's almost cathartic. Unless by some miracle I end up being seen as human by just one woman who can somehow overlook my looks, and I manage to have a normal happy life with a family of my own, given my mothers age and the fact my sister is long dead I truly will be the last of my bloodline. Which in a way sucks as a concept. But I've known this for a long time. I'm not ending my bloodline. I'm ending theirs.
Never expected to outlive either of them tbh but at least there's some satisfaction to be had there. Instead they don't get the satisfaction of outliving me. Always nice to have a stroke of luck every now and then. Although I know while this is a good thing for me, sadly there are many incels out there with decent families who will no longer be able to continue their bloodline due to their incelibacy.
I agree with my mother that I should have joined my many miscarried siblings.
It's almost fitting that my last memory/experience of him is exactly how he always was. An aggressive shite. I can rest easy knowing that me outliving him would have pissed him off. It's almost cathartic. Unless by some miracle I end up being seen as human by just one woman who can somehow overlook my looks, and I manage to have a normal happy life with a family of my own, given my mothers age and the fact my sister is long dead I truly will be the last of my bloodline. Which in a way sucks as a concept. But I've known this for a long time. I'm not ending my bloodline. I'm ending theirs.
Never expected to outlive either of them tbh but at least there's some satisfaction to be had there. Instead they don't get the satisfaction of outliving me. Always nice to have a stroke of luck every now and then. Although I know while this is a good thing for me, sadly there are many incels out there with decent families who will no longer be able to continue their bloodline due to their incelibacy.
I agree with my mother that I should have joined my many miscarried siblings.
