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Blackpill (dark past) I'm son of a whore | I'm incel because of my mother, too (continuing old thread where I put out why I am an incel because of my father)

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previous thread where I pin the blame of my inceldom on my father (of course, apart from my looks and genes) and the kind of life I was bestowed upon by him

oldcels here perhaps know my story a bit,
that I lost my mother in my childhood, the only person I was close to, who cared for me...and how my father used to mistreat her a lot, and it sawn a seed of hatred for my father in me


my mother was mostly a nice caring one for us siblings but father treated her like slave and after raising us up old enough she died in her sleep peacefully, i don't exactly have much memories about her from my childhood because i forgot many things about her :cryfeels:

during bacherlos when i would come back home for some peace of mind even presence of my father would annoy me so much that even being at home would turn untolerable experience

as for parents venting their anger out;

when my mother was alive my father used to fight with her every single fucking day over random things and all of that left deep scars on my psyche;
as if that was nothing one day my asshole father enraged over something threw a hot pressure cooker on floor while i was sitting in same room and it opened with loud bang and steam and vapour of whatever was being cooked inside spread across room...he threw that on floor about 4 or 5 metres away from me; that noise of hot steamy pressure cooker opening up was so loud it affected my left ear probably tore it a bit from inside or damaging some nerve something; besides this entire experience was so shocking for a 11-12 some old me; i spent entire day crying from pain and agony and took me for a while to recover from that shock

even this day my hearing on left ear is somewhat muffled down and so, it shows extensively when i wear headphones as left one would sound considerably less louder than right one while listening to them together

this was extrememost incident but there were many like this thoroughout my childhood, all of that ended with my mother but it's still stored somewhere deeply in my memories my psych and all; i've had days of going to exams while crying about lack of domestic peace back home and people at school would think i'm crying over exams;
there was another incident when my parents went to a cousin's wedding while i was elsewhere and did not call me for straight 4 days and i became worried so called and asked my mother what happened etc and she cried over phone, informed how my father made scenes there and kicked her in belly that she fainted and they came back and just locked themselves up inside home without saying anything and stopped eating drikning etc - i immediately dragged myself back home from some 250 km away and had to do convincing and begging and all to resume things in family

whenever i look at other people enjoying their married lives and kids being taken care of by parents etc i just feel like my inner child is crying so hard over feelings like i could never get it all from my parents
it's not that we ever faced monetary problems or there was no food or no other things like clothing, schooling et al in my life, but domestic life was just shitty

before my mother died i even told her to just get a divorce and be done with all that; she started crying over it and my elder brother beaten me like a dog over it - that was one of last emotional outbursts between us that i could remember


but man, was i...wrong?

last night, father got super drunk and made scenes at home, calling my mother names like 'randi' = whore, enraging me, we fought...in his age he's now physically weaker than me, so i was able to tame him quickly and pushed him to his bedroom and yelled at him to not come out unless he'd sobered up...

after some hours he finally came out, seemingly sober enough, he sat beside me

and he revealed to me, the darkest hidden - forgotten truth about my life with this exact words "beta, tu randi ka bachcha hai" = "Son, You're sunnowa bitch" - not in mocking tone or anything, but in damn serious tone

he then told lots of things to me, completely deconstructing my life in front of my eyes as he revealed my late mother's past to me; from things he told me, this is the gist
- mother had an elder sister (some aunty of mine), when she was in high school she went to this sister - my aunty's home to help her when this aunty became pregnant and was expecting to deliver
- there, mother met my uncle, her brother-in-law...IT WAS THIS UNCLE OF MINE THAT TOOK MY MOTHER'S VIRGINITY BY CHARMING HER WITH SWEET TALKS AND ALL WHEN SHE WAS BARELY 15
- mother returned her home, stayed like that for years, or had side flicks in school - college later on, no one knows or can say with certainty; but yeah she hid her affair with this uncle and all from everyone in family
- mother married my father, bore his three children, i'm the youngest one, and after my birth, when i was barely six months old, she cheated on my father with some neighbour because apparently as per her my father's mistreatment and their disturbed domestic life made her feel "loveless" and she yearned for it elsewhere
- their affairs lasted for six some months, father eventually caught them, he beat the shit out of that neighbour guy, and was about to kill my mother too, but family stopped him
- it was this moment when my mother finally revealed to him that prior to this affairs she lost her virginity to this uncle of mine, further enraging him and worsening things for us
- my mother was sent back to her family, she stayed there for good two years, eventually my father and she made compromise over us kids and she came back his home as my mother again, but apparently they were never able to reconcile and my father ever (rightfully) resented her and all his reactions were deeply rooted in her betrayal
- mother eventually died when i turned 17-18 some in her sleep; my father's assholery ever continued

i was so shocked, flabbergasted and traumatised...i kept starring at him, he eventually sensed something and responded, "Wondering about what was your fault in all this? to be frank, you're just a victim of that whore mother of yours, your fault is that you were born to her and faced her karma; as for question of why telling it all now after years - just wanted to come clear about things before dying."

he later fall asleep, while i was having flashbacks of my life and mentally relating how every wrong thing that happened in my family, related to my mother's adultery, either directly or indirectly - couldn't sleep last night, kept smoking while at it all...

but some part in me was still denying it all, nah, must be a drunkard's rambling, so i dialed my big bro and asked him, he became so enraged that he threatened to break my legs if i ever brought this matter to him again and cut the call, i then dialed my sister who feigned ignorance (or rather indifference) and advised me to move on

eventually i reached my father's sister, that aunty was around when it all happened, and she too wanted me to "forget and forgive" but i insisted her to tell me the goddamn truth, and she conceded everything my father said was truth, even shared some of her insights
- mother used to write..."love letters" to this neighbour guy, and in one of her letters she wished to run away with him, abandoning her family behind
- family mostly decided to bury this matter because they feared shaming from society, they even sold that home where I was born and she committed all her adultery and moved far away from there, and decision to take her back was direly opposed by my father, who eventually caved in when someone in family suggested she'd be at least a good caretaker to her children till they grow up, after that "it didn't matter if she lived or died"

*******************************************************************************************************************************************************************************

so that's it, fellow incelbros...
i'm done for.
 
I inherited my mother's shitskin and shortness jfl.
 
Absolute state of jeets.
 
previous thread where I pin the blame of my inceldom on my father (of course, apart from my looks and genes) and the kind of life I was bestowed upon by him

oldcels here perhaps know my story a bit,
that I lost my mother in my childhood, the only person I was close to, who cared for me...and how my father used to mistreat her a lot, and it sawn a seed of hatred for my father in me







but man, was i...wrong?

last night, father got super drunk and made scenes at home, calling my mother names like 'randi' = whore, enraging me, we fought...in his age he's now physically weaker than me, so i was able to tame him quickly and pushed him to his bedroom and yelled at him to not come out unless he'd sobered up...

after some hours he finally came out, seemingly sober enough, he sat beside me

and he revealed to me, the darkest hidden - forgotten truth about my life with this exact words "beta, tu randi ka bachcha hai" = "Son, You're sunnowa bitch" - not in mocking tone or anything, but in damn serious tone

he then told lots of things to me, completely deconstructing my life in front of my eyes as he revealed my late mother's past to me; from things he told me, this is the gist
- mother had an elder sister (some aunty of mine), when she was in high school she went to this sister - my aunty's home to help her when this aunty became pregnant and was expecting to deliver
- there, mother met my uncle, her brother-in-law...IT WAS THIS UNCLE OF MINE THAT TOOK MY MOTHER'S VIRGINITY BY CHARMING HER WITH SWEET TALKS AND ALL WHEN SHE WAS BARELY 15
- mother returned her home, stayed like that for years, or had side flicks in school - college later on, no one knows or can say with certainty; but yeah she hid her affair with this uncle and all from everyone in family
- mother married my father, bore his three children, i'm the youngest one, and after my birth, when i was barely six months old, she cheated on my father with some neighbour because apparently as per her my father's mistreatment and their disturbed domestic life made her feel "loveless" and she yearned for it elsewhere
- their affairs lasted for six some months, father eventually caught them, he beat the shit out of that neighbour guy, and was about to kill my mother too, but family stopped him
- it was this moment when my mother finally revealed to him that prior to this affairs she lost her virginity to this uncle of mine, further enraging him and worsening things for us
- my mother was sent back to her family, she stayed there for good two years, eventually my father and she made compromise over us kids and she came back his home as my mother again, but apparently they were never able to reconcile and my father ever (rightfully) resented her and all his reactions were deeply rooted in her betrayal
- mother eventually died when i turned 17-18 some in her sleep; my father's assholery ever continued

i was so shocked, flabbergasted and traumatised...i kept starring at him, he eventually sensed something and responded, "Wondering about what was your fault in all this? to be frank, you're just a victim of that whore mother of yours, your fault is that you were born to her and faced her karma; as for question of why telling it all now after years - just wanted to come clear about things before dying."

he later fall asleep, while i was having flashbacks of my life and mentally relating how every wrong thing that happened in my family, related to my mother's adultery, either directly or indirectly - couldn't sleep last night, kept smoking while at it all...

but some part in me was still denying it all, nah, must be a drunkard's rambling, so i dialed my big bro and asked him, he became so enraged that he threatened to break my legs if i ever brought this matter to him again and cut the call, i then dialed my sister who feigned ignorance (or rather indifference) and advised me to move on

eventually i reached my father's sister, that aunty was around when it all happened, and she too wanted me to "forget and forgive" but i insisted her to tell me the goddamn truth, and she conceded everything my father said was truth, even shared some of her insights
- mother used to write..."love letters" to this neighbour guy, and in one of her letters she wished to run away with him, abandoning her family behind
- family mostly decided to bury this matter because they feared shaming from society, they even sold that home where I was born and she committed all her adultery and moved far away from there, and decision to take her back was direly opposed by my father, who eventually caved in when someone in family suggested she'd be at least a good caretaker to her children till they grow up, after that "it didn't matter if she lived or died"

*******************************************************************************************************************************************************************************

so that's it, fellow incelbros...
i'm done for.
arent we all
 
dude is either a bengali or a odiya , that alone adds credence to his story
No fucking way on earth is this real :lul:
 
Is this post for real or some kind of larp or prank?
i'm not larping

it's all fucking truth

my mental state is so bad i couldn't even lie like this if i wanted to - and you incelbros are only one on internet i've shared this story with, after months of disappearance from this forum, because i think perhaps only you guys could relate with it all
 
i'm not larping

it's all fucking truth

my mental state is so bad i couldn't even lie like this if i wanted to - and you incelbros are only one on internet i've shared this story with, after months of disappearance from this forum, because i think perhaps only you guys could relate with it all
Are you even a real incel?
 
@Caesercel @Diddy take a look at this shit
 
i'm very sorry brocel, women just be like that even our mothers are not innocent in this. My mom used to verbally abuse my dad every day and then blamed him for eventually leaving her. Women are truly masters at making others look like the bad guy and shifting the blame.
 
previous thread where I pin the blame of my inceldom on my father (of course, apart from my looks and genes) and the kind of life I was bestowed upon by him

oldcels here perhaps know my story a bit,
that I lost my mother in my childhood, the only person I was close to, who cared for me...and how my father used to mistreat her a lot, and it sawn a seed of hatred for my father in me







but man, was i...wrong?

last night, father got super drunk and made scenes at home, calling my mother names like 'randi' = whore, enraging me, we fought...in his age he's now physically weaker than me, so i was able to tame him quickly and pushed him to his bedroom and yelled at him to not come out unless he'd sobered up...

after some hours he finally came out, seemingly sober enough, he sat beside me

and he revealed to me, the darkest hidden - forgotten truth about my life with this exact words "beta, tu randi ka bachcha hai" = "Son, You're sunnowa bitch" - not in mocking tone or anything, but in damn serious tone

he then told lots of things to me, completely deconstructing my life in front of my eyes as he revealed my late mother's past to me; from things he told me, this is the gist
- mother had an elder sister (some aunty of mine), when she was in high school she went to this sister - my aunty's home to help her when this aunty became pregnant and was expecting to deliver
- there, mother met my uncle, her brother-in-law...IT WAS THIS UNCLE OF MINE THAT TOOK MY MOTHER'S VIRGINITY BY CHARMING HER WITH SWEET TALKS AND ALL WHEN SHE WAS BARELY 15
- mother returned her home, stayed like that for years, or had side flicks in school - college later on, no one knows or can say with certainty; but yeah she hid her affair with this uncle and all from everyone in family
- mother married my father, bore his three children, i'm the youngest one, and after my birth, when i was barely six months old, she cheated on my father with some neighbour because apparently as per her my father's mistreatment and their disturbed domestic life made her feel "loveless" and she yearned for it elsewhere
- their affairs lasted for six some months, father eventually caught them, he beat the shit out of that neighbour guy, and was about to kill my mother too, but family stopped him
- it was this moment when my mother finally revealed to him that prior to this affairs she lost her virginity to this uncle of mine, further enraging him and worsening things for us
- my mother was sent back to her family, she stayed there for good two years, eventually my father and she made compromise over us kids and she came back his home as my mother again, but apparently they were never able to reconcile and my father ever (rightfully) resented her and all his reactions were deeply rooted in her betrayal
- mother eventually died when i turned 17-18 some in her sleep; my father's assholery ever continued

i was so shocked, flabbergasted and traumatised...i kept starring at him, he eventually sensed something and responded, "Wondering about what was your fault in all this? to be frank, you're just a victim of that whore mother of yours, your fault is that you were born to her and faced her karma; as for question of why telling it all now after years - just wanted to come clear about things before dying."

he later fall asleep, while i was having flashbacks of my life and mentally relating how every wrong thing that happened in my family, related to my mother's adultery, either directly or indirectly - couldn't sleep last night, kept smoking while at it all...

but some part in me was still denying it all, nah, must be a drunkard's rambling, so i dialed my big bro and asked him, he became so enraged that he threatened to break my legs if i ever brought this matter to him again and cut the call, i then dialed my sister who feigned ignorance (or rather indifference) and advised me to move on

eventually i reached my father's sister, that aunty was around when it all happened, and she too wanted me to "forget and forgive" but i insisted her to tell me the goddamn truth, and she conceded everything my father said was truth, even shared some of her insights
- mother used to write..."love letters" to this neighbour guy, and in one of her letters she wished to run away with him, abandoning her family behind
- family mostly decided to bury this matter because they feared shaming from society, they even sold that home where I was born and she committed all her adultery and moved far away from there, and decision to take her back was direly opposed by my father, who eventually caved in when someone in family suggested she'd be at least a good caretaker to her children till they grow up, after that "it didn't matter if she lived or died"

*******************************************************************************************************************************************************************************

so that's it, fellow incelbros...
i'm done for.
my mother cheats on any random man who shows up , first it was the realtor who got us the house then a restaurant owner where we frequently went to, then a fucking realtor again and tonnes of them. Im sure my father knows it all and he isnt innocent at all. he cheats on with a persian relative of mine,since she is a freaking blonde and beautiful. and once i got his phone,all he does is watch porn and text random girls.I think he is just ugly and cant get laid enough so yea that stops him from becoming a manwhore.
 
@jeetcel Brutal reading man.I thankfully have got a loving mom but i still empathize with your pain:cryfeels::cryfeels::cryfeels:
 
hello brocels again,

just wanted to drop an update on what happened after that long dreadful night when i got to know about my late mother's whoredom...

so next day when my father sobered up he just asked me to forget about past and move on as 'it won't change anything'...i asked him if he killed her in sleep that day (cue, my aunty's comment)

and decision to take her back was direly opposed by my father, who eventually caved in when someone in family suggested she'd be at least a good caretaker to her children till they grow up, after that "it didn't matter if she lived or died"

he simply looked in my eyes and responded "I don't remember" and went on with his daily things as usual

about a week passed after that, without much happening, then my big sis came home and asked me in private why was i inquiring about it all, i told her everything, she had her own mini mental breakdown, telling me she knew and remembered and witnessed it all as a kid, but unlike me who stayed emo ignorant kid (huh) she steeled her resolve to move on with life, that she 'matured' earlier and made peace with that past; and that's what i should do as well - she even suggested i make up peace with my father as he's a mere 'victim' in this and should let go of my angst or rivalry with him, i lowkey agreed for it saying i'll try but "taali ek haath se thodi na bajti hai" (it takes two hands to clap = blame for any quarrel lies on both sides)

and i've been trying since then to amend my relationship with my father, but he's still same towards me, responding in same asshole ways, keep on drinking and making scenes, saying me names...

overall this is one of lowest moment in my life, the only person i was close to in my life turned out to be a whore that ruined my past-present-future with her actions, as if my first love started with a betrayal and lies; i can't even take out my anger at her as she's dead and everyone just tells me to forget-forgive-move on; and i don't think i'll ever be able to reconcile with my father as he also doesn't care much...i just feel alone and lost, more than ever
 
@Pajeetsingh @Blackpill Monk
 
Shit man. Indian families are always so fucked up but yours sounds a bit more. I wish I was just white or any race where they are loving and normal to their families.
 
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i'm not larping

it's all fucking truth

my mental state is so bad i couldn't even lie like this if i wanted to - and you incelbros are only one on internet i've shared this story with, after months of disappearance from this forum, because i think perhaps only you guys could relate with it all
brocel we are here for you.
 
Hope you heal from this brocel and move on.:heart:
 
hope things get better, whats done is done brocel :3
 
If she cared for u, she probably wanted to become a better person
 
Welcome to the club bro.
 

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