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ryhan
Julias dracul romanov the 2 eyed abyss
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I get so easily aggravated at every little thing.My younger sister keep's pissing me off every 5 minutes she want's me to get get something for her.For instance she want's me to get her what food she want's god it's annoying especially when she can do it herself.Like am i the messed up 1 here i often try and smash my head agaist the wall or swear from frustration.In context i'm 17 and my younger sister is like 8 and i know they do annoying stuff at this age but i can't handle it.Seriously she take's an hour to eat a meal i constantly have to keep making sure she actually eat's seriously it worries me what will happen if my mom was to die.In context I have a huge fear of parent's dying my dad died in 2016 and it's fucking with my head even to this day i'm not using this as a excuse i'm afraid what is she gonna do if my mom dies ?. I also slightly resent my mother for forcing religion onto me and trying to convince me god is somehow watching every 2nd of every move and growing up with that fuck's with your head.
I know I'm grown up and should know better but I can't control my anger and fear I hold resentment for my mother quite a lot although I love her i hate her pushing Ramadan or religion onto me.That is my only pet peeve and i don't try to piss her off I don't order anything i don't need i don't purposely try and piss her off either i just spend most day's on the pc cause I give up.She also raised me to be a pussy and fear her but when I lack confidence she wonder's why i just want to punch the wall every fucking day.I know i'm not perfect here but it's hard to cope I can't let go of my dad dying it's fucking with me. Personally i think we are all mentally fucked i think though i am one of the most honest person here I introspect and see what i've done wrong but i also get frustrated. The worst part is i had one of the greatest dad's it really fuck's with me knowing he's gone and i'm alone.
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I know I'm grown up and should know better but I can't control my anger and fear I hold resentment for my mother quite a lot although I love her i hate her pushing Ramadan or religion onto me.That is my only pet peeve and i don't try to piss her off I don't order anything i don't need i don't purposely try and piss her off either i just spend most day's on the pc cause I give up.She also raised me to be a pussy and fear her but when I lack confidence she wonder's why i just want to punch the wall every fucking day.I know i'm not perfect here but it's hard to cope I can't let go of my dad dying it's fucking with me. Personally i think we are all mentally fucked i think though i am one of the most honest person here I introspect and see what i've done wrong but i also get frustrated. The worst part is i had one of the greatest dad's it really fuck's with me knowing he's gone and i'm alone.
If you've read this and can relate share your experience.