LDAR Crippling nostalgia

[LeDepravedCel]

My childhood was objectively crap. I am by all measures in a better position then I was as a kid. Yet, I am crippled by overwhelming feelings of nostalgia, to the point that it drives me mad.

Why? What is it that I'm longing for? It's the innocence. Sure, life was shitø and I was effectively already doomed, but I didn't know any of that, nor did I care. I had no knowledge of how fucked our world is. I felt no anger, no resentment, no jealousy, no depression. Life just happened and somehow I found joy in the little things. I was happy.

All that is now gone. I want to crawl back to that warmth and never look back. Perhaps that's what happens when we die. God embraces us and lets us rejoice in eternal comfort and safety. Yes, that's all I could ask for. I would kms in an instance if I were sure that this would await me.

 

[LeDepravedCel]

Crippling noreplypill

 

[Mecoja]

I feel the same, i was very genuinely happy until my dad went crazy, after that sometimes was good sometimes was living hell.

 

[RandomBroCel]

My childhood was objectively crap. I am by all measures in a better position then I was as a kid. Yet, I am crippled by overwhelming feelings of nostalgia, to the point that it drives me mad.

Why? What is it that I'm longing for? It's the innocence. Sure, life was shitø and I was effectively already doomed, but I didn't know any of that, nor did I care. I had no knowledge of how fucked our world is. I felt no anger, no resentment, no jealousy, no depression. Life just happened and somehow I found joy in the little things. I was happy.

All that is now gone. I want to crawl back to that warmth and never look back. Perhaps that's what happens when we die. God embraces us and lets us rejoice in eternal comfort and safety. Yes, that's all I could ask for. I would kms in an instance if I were sure that this would await me.

Now Im generally depressed and nothing brings joy anymore. I mean NOTHING. I remember when I was 12,13 years old I would wake up and be super excited to start playing videogames. I think for few brief years I was actually happy as a pre teen when I was playing videogames. Now I just use them to kill time

 

[Deleted member 35110]

I get the same feeling when I go and cycle around places that I used to visit alone as a kid

They are usually in the woods, since as a kid I lived in a wooded area with no neighbors around me