It took a while but now at 25 I feel as though I've basically become entirely bored with life. There's not really much you can do as an unattractive guy, it is indeed a messed up cycle of hiding from the world in a safe space so you don't have to deal with humanity. But at the same time, I've become equally bored with my consumption of media seeing as to how I've been doing that in large quantities for years now. I have 56 platinum trophies to my psn account, have seen plenty of shows from beginning to end, most of the popular movies and such. Now I'm to the point where it's not as enjoyable as it once was, which is sad because I use to really love gaming. I grew up with the snes and have stuck with PlayStation since the ps2 era. Idk man, society is just so predictably structured it's fucking maddening. Work, sleep, eat, repeat seems to be the go to cycle for most of us or just take out the work part for the neets. But I mean, most of what people consider fun we are denied access to by others due to our inferior looks. Going to parties, socialising, having friends are all a pain in the ass if your an ugly guy. We are looked at as the bottom of the barrel and treated like trash. All this bull shit has really made me entirely apathetic towards human existence on this lonely planet of ours. Wish I could up and move to mars or something but alas I was born far too early for intergalactic travel and am stuck with the rest of these bafoons.
