This is a tough one to write. I'm sure we all remember our first mogged experience or when they first got blackpilled. Mine was when my superior personality failed to get a kiss at a high school party in a house where the ratio of men to women was 3:1, and I was the only nonwhite person there. It was right at the beginning of high school. Everyone was around 14-16. This is the age when kids start getting involved with romance so everyone at the party was there to find love somehow. I was the life of the party, dancing, chatting everyone up, making the house owners laugh. All was going well till my friends from middle school walked in. One of the guys was my enemy, someone I constantly argued with and nearly fought. He never tried anything because I was much bigger than him, but he had a huge growth spurt and now he was tall, handsome, and a hockey player. He immediately said that I tried too hard to be cool and that my stories were "gay". The two hottest blondes there were chadstruck and began to giggle. I barely noticed as I was just focused on having fun. In fact, I didn't register most of the night until I was forced to look back on it in hindsight.
As the night grew longer I got close to a blonde babe, I will call her Blue. We talked for a while. She was out of my league but the level of interest she showed was off the charts. At this point, everyone started pairing off with one or two girls. There was a tall fugly girl from my old school who I thought I could get with if I struck out with Blue. That was until she saw my friend holding hands with some brunette babe she just met. Fugly got sad but no one noticed except me. I told my friend that Fugly liked him and he said he already knew and laughed. He didn't care, he had hella options. Side note, this dude had a decent face but was quite small yet so many girls liked him through school. I think it's because he was white, I'm not sure. Anyway me and blue go downstairs and I see my enemy turned Chad making out with the hottest girl there. I chuckle because he was tied with two other Chads for the dumbest kids in our grade. All our grades were released publicly so everyone knew who was at the top and who was at the bottom, and these three guys were consistently the bottom three in every quiz every test and every final grade. You will hear about the other two in the future. My and Blue sit on a couch and I initiate a bit and she says no. I ask why, and she says she's not interested in doing something with anyone tonight. I said fine and I left her.
The party began to wind down and I still hadn't kissed anyone. I went back and found Blue and embarrassingly begged her to get with me multiple times. Very cringe. I went back with new propositions each time. "You told me you like dark skin guys" "You've been talking to me all night" "You won't even remember it" blah blah blah. She continued to emphasize that she had zero intention of making out with anybody that night. I finally gave up and begged two of my other friends for a kiss unsuccessfully. I went to the basement to relax, but as I was walking down the stairs I saw Blue making out with dumb Chad. She lied about not wanting to kiss anyone obviously. Which is fine, she obviously was just not attracted to me. I went upstairs instead to avoid an awkward confrontation but I later realized that I forgot my jacket downstairs. My mom was waiting outside to pick me up and I had to go get it. When I went downstairs I saw her making out with my other friend. I couldn't believe it I was shocked. I wasn't mad about it. This was my first black pill experience but I didn't realize the black pill until years later. I still had a really good time and enjoyed the party. I later asked my friend who she made out with why she wouldn't kiss me but she kissed him. Apparently Blue said, "I just don't like him". Brutal.
As the night grew longer I got close to a blonde babe, I will call her Blue. We talked for a while. She was out of my league but the level of interest she showed was off the charts. At this point, everyone started pairing off with one or two girls. There was a tall fugly girl from my old school who I thought I could get with if I struck out with Blue. That was until she saw my friend holding hands with some brunette babe she just met. Fugly got sad but no one noticed except me. I told my friend that Fugly liked him and he said he already knew and laughed. He didn't care, he had hella options. Side note, this dude had a decent face but was quite small yet so many girls liked him through school. I think it's because he was white, I'm not sure. Anyway me and blue go downstairs and I see my enemy turned Chad making out with the hottest girl there. I chuckle because he was tied with two other Chads for the dumbest kids in our grade. All our grades were released publicly so everyone knew who was at the top and who was at the bottom, and these three guys were consistently the bottom three in every quiz every test and every final grade. You will hear about the other two in the future. My and Blue sit on a couch and I initiate a bit and she says no. I ask why, and she says she's not interested in doing something with anyone tonight. I said fine and I left her.
The party began to wind down and I still hadn't kissed anyone. I went back and found Blue and embarrassingly begged her to get with me multiple times. Very cringe. I went back with new propositions each time. "You told me you like dark skin guys" "You've been talking to me all night" "You won't even remember it" blah blah blah. She continued to emphasize that she had zero intention of making out with anybody that night. I finally gave up and begged two of my other friends for a kiss unsuccessfully. I went to the basement to relax, but as I was walking down the stairs I saw Blue making out with dumb Chad. She lied about not wanting to kiss anyone obviously. Which is fine, she obviously was just not attracted to me. I went upstairs instead to avoid an awkward confrontation but I later realized that I forgot my jacket downstairs. My mom was waiting outside to pick me up and I had to go get it. When I went downstairs I saw her making out with my other friend. I couldn't believe it I was shocked. I wasn't mad about it. This was my first black pill experience but I didn't realize the black pill until years later. I still had a really good time and enjoyed the party. I later asked my friend who she made out with why she wouldn't kiss me but she kissed him. Apparently Blue said, "I just don't like him". Brutal.
