Can’t stop crying lately

[Michael15651]

It’s like a cloud of darkness following me wherever I go.

I stopped the steroids (Tren) for 2 days and been super tired and had worse mood swings than when I’m on. No motivation to even go to the gym lifting natural.

I hopped back on. Couldn’t take it.

People tell me they notice a difference. I’m quiet, keep to myself now, very “assertive” and “commanding”, they invited me to something else but I declined too afraid of rejection. I can tell they are slowly distancing themselves from me now.

I’m self-sabotaging. I don’t beliveve I deserve to be loved. I look in the mirror and hate what I see. A monster. A freak. I deserve to hurt myself as I slowly inject that needle.

My sleep has taken a hit. Nightmares every night. Need Xanax just to knock myself out. Fuck.

I’ve always felt this deep down. The steroids have just amplified it x100. Loneliness. Sadness.

Listening to how everyone else is getting laid, I can’t help but feel angry. Angry at myself. I up the dosage.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Everyone deserves to be loved brother, don't let these normies get you down.

A good cry can be good for you sometimes. Better to let it all out then to hold in all the anger and sadness.

This life can be too much sometimes, but don't blame yourself for something you can't control.

 

[currycell900]

cry as much as you can its the last time you gonna do it. After that you will lose the ability to do so. Same happened with me

 

[Michael15651]

Everyone deserves to be loved brother, don't let these normies get you down.

A good cry can be good for you sometimes. Better to let it all out then to hold in all the anger and sadness.

This life can be too much sometimes, but don't blame yourself for something you can't control.

Bro the steroids got me so fuckin emotional.

This is not like me at all.

I’m literally having deep thoughts about my childhood and crying about my parents being separated even though it happened years ago.

Things I could’ve done different. Replaying how people would react if something happened to me.

Everything is hitting me at once. Fuck

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Bro the steroids got me so fuckin emotional.

This is not like me at all.

I’m literally having deep thoughts about my childhood and crying about my parents being separated even though it happened years ago.

Things I could’ve done different. Replaying how people would react if something happened to me.

Everything is hitting me at once. Fuck

Maybe it's a side effect of going cold turkey from them? Try to take it easy bro.

Sometimes life just hits us at full force.

 

[LeonTheSilent]

I stopped the steroids (Tren) for 2 days and been super tired and had worse mood swings than when I’m on. No motivation to even go to the gym lifting natural.

Side effects. You needed to see a doctor or atleast a nutritionist for hormonal resupplying before stopping. Take care of what you eat., try to sleep and stay away of any content that may trigger you. No joke dude, you gonna feel like roping and rotting 24/7 but it is just your mind trying to understand why you body is not porducing testosterone.

 

[Michael15651]

Maybe it's a side effect of going cold turkey from them? Try to take it easy bro.

Sometimes life just hits us at full force.

I injected again 3 hours ago I couldn’t take it the detox.

It’s such a love/hate relationship with steroids (trenbolone). It gives me confidence and strength like nothing else.

It’s like a shell that’s protecting all the hurt. I don’t know how to tell people I’m hurting so this is how I cope if that makes sense.

Side effects. You needed to see a doctor or atleast a nutritionist for hormonal resupplying before stopping. Take care of what you eat., try to sleep and stay away of any content that may trigger you. No joke dude, you gonna feel like roping and rotting 24/7 but it is just your mind trying to understand why you body is not porducing testosterone.

It don’t even matter bro because at the end of the day, guess what? I’m still the same man in the mirror.

It’s sad bro. I’m human, I deserve to feel happy. I deserve to feel loved. I deserve to know what it’s like to be wanted.

Seeing instagram reels of couples, friendships turning to relationships, hearing of normies experiences having sex, watching porn every night. Fuck.

 

[NeverEvenBegan]

 

[LeonTheSilent]

I injected again 3 hours ago I couldn’t take it the detox.

It’s such a love/hate relationship with steroids (trenbolone). It gives me confidence and strength like nothing else.

It’s like a shell that’s protecting all the hurt. I don’t know how to tell people I’m hurting so this is how I cope if that makes sense.



It don’t even matter bro because at the end of the day, guess what? I’m still the same man in the mirror.

It’s sad bro. I’m human, I deserve to feel happy. I deserve to feel loved. I deserve to know what it’s like to be wanted.

Seeing instagram reels of couples, friendships turning to relationships, hearing of normies experiences having sex, watching porn every night. Fuck.

But you are not the same. You changed you body, changed you life style, tried and you still here. And yes, you deserve love things should be different. We should not have to talk about our feelings in a forum full of strangers. "Incel" should not even be a thing to call a human, but here we are. Don´t give up on yourself. The people on reddit, making fun you us 24/7, the bullies, the people at work place... They are wrong , gov is wrong, this world is wrong.

"We can't just give up, downgrade everything and accept it as it is. Why? Because this culture is completely unsustainable. As long as we fail to love, there will always be problems. Not that I care, but do you want this war forever? You'd better get used to it, because it's not just going away. You can waste all the time you want trying to fix the problem from the outside in, trying to rearrange things without actually addressing the foundation, making up new forms of governments to manage people, making up new rules and psychological profiles and theories and technologies and forms of entertainment, but the problem will never go away.. I promise it won't... We haven't learned anything... Nothing." - - Ben godspeed.

 

[Friezacel]

The duality of men

 

[cripplecel]

Go to whatever your friends invited you to.

You will eventually not have these chances and will regret it deeply

 

[PolskiKartofel]

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The duality of men

Duality of richfags and friendhavers

 

[Friezacel]

Duality of richfags and friendhavers

I can only dream of getting invited by people that are not family members

 

[Fed_911]

I can only dream of getting invited by people that are not family members

 

[Thugs-5-Less]

tren can turn you gay

 

[TheGrayWolf]

same, heard some sad songs today on the radio - songs often intensify these feelings for me - i thought about my deceased childhood pets and about my gf-less future and that one day my mom will pass away