I have nothing to lose so I’ll say it, I never really learned basic math beyond subtraction, addition, and some multiplication, I barely even know how to count money.
I always hated math and I never really ever payed attention in math class every since I first started school, I was always busy doodling in my notebooks, staring at girls, wanting to sniff their hair and lick their butts and fuck them, or joking around with other maladjusted lunatics like me. Math just couldn’t keep my attention at all. And when I got older I never bothered to try learning it, and I don’t care to become it’s boring.
I always did the bare minimum to pass with a D, many times I just failed and still went on. I never even took 6th grade math ever because I stayed back in 5th grade math but still went to 6th grade, and then when I got to 6th grade I was in the math class with the 5th graders.
However I did completely fine in all the other classes passing with C’s, B’s and As. My terrible understanding for math for my age qualified me for special education, but that was the only reason I was in the special Ed class.
In terms of other areas, I feel like my overall comprehension isn’t terrible. I’m very capable of having complex conversations and can talk about a large range of subjects, far more than my family is able to. And my self awareness is very high.
And I think really deep, questioning life and reality as a whole, something a retarded person simply wouldn’t do. On top of that I’m also an atheist, able to see past the delusion of theology. And I’m able to understand that a completely perfect god that knows everything before it actually happens and can do absolutely anything wouldn’t create such a evil reality without malicious intentions behind it, or a complete indifference towards his creations. The whole thing just doesn’t make any sense.
And I mean I’m at least smart enough to understand how terrible this reality is and humanity as a whole, something most people on the planet can’t even understand due to their own privilege and lack of perspective from someone on the duller other side of life.
To anyone who actually wanted to read this whole thing. Am I just plain stupid or what? Thoughts?
I always hated math and I never really ever payed attention in math class every since I first started school, I was always busy doodling in my notebooks, staring at girls, wanting to sniff their hair and lick their butts and fuck them, or joking around with other maladjusted lunatics like me. Math just couldn’t keep my attention at all. And when I got older I never bothered to try learning it, and I don’t care to become it’s boring.
I always did the bare minimum to pass with a D, many times I just failed and still went on. I never even took 6th grade math ever because I stayed back in 5th grade math but still went to 6th grade, and then when I got to 6th grade I was in the math class with the 5th graders.
However I did completely fine in all the other classes passing with C’s, B’s and As. My terrible understanding for math for my age qualified me for special education, but that was the only reason I was in the special Ed class.
In terms of other areas, I feel like my overall comprehension isn’t terrible. I’m very capable of having complex conversations and can talk about a large range of subjects, far more than my family is able to. And my self awareness is very high.
And I think really deep, questioning life and reality as a whole, something a retarded person simply wouldn’t do. On top of that I’m also an atheist, able to see past the delusion of theology. And I’m able to understand that a completely perfect god that knows everything before it actually happens and can do absolutely anything wouldn’t create such a evil reality without malicious intentions behind it, or a complete indifference towards his creations. The whole thing just doesn’t make any sense.
And I mean I’m at least smart enough to understand how terrible this reality is and humanity as a whole, something most people on the planet can’t even understand due to their own privilege and lack of perspective from someone on the duller other side of life.
To anyone who actually wanted to read this whole thing. Am I just plain stupid or what? Thoughts?
