Relationships/Marriages Are For Well Endowed Guys
Sex
This is a long post. I’ve been wrestling with this belief for awhile. Its not something I wanna believe and I’m not opposed to the idea that it’s influenced by body dysmorphia/depression but its moreso influenced by my experiences in the world.
To preface, I’m black, grew up in a black community, raised around a lot of women in an environment that was very hyper sexual, so the size conversation/obsession has always been pretty prevalent for me. It always seemed that all the women around me were size queens. Hearing/seeing things I shouldn’t have at a very early age constructed my beliefs around this issue. I actually don’t remember a time when I didnt know what sex was. Even early on in my childhood. And by middle school it seemed like everybody around me was having their first sexual experiences.
In middle school I went to a summer camp and one of the kids I met there and became friends with became an overnight ladies man after one of the girls in our camp asked to see his dick and he showed it to her. After that all the girls in our camp liked him. We were barely 11 lol.
In my high school there was a guy who was sleeping with all these different girls. And they all knew and seemed okay with it. And I remember overhearing a conversation between one of the girls he was sleeping with and this other guy in my class where the guy said,”I don’t know what yall see in him.” And the girl replied pretty matter of factly,”He got a big ass dick. That’s all we need to see.”
I know of so many other stories like this but i wont beat a dead horse, bigger is objectively better and preferred. And Before anyone tries to cope me to death, I already know, not with EVERY woman. But the overwhelming majority. And all of these things just made me incredibly anxious about my body. At a time where I really just wanted to be a kid. It progressed into adulthood and ultimately I didnt lose my virginity until I was 23 just out of fear I’d be made fun of or wouldnt be big enough.
I had opportunities to lose it sooner but I didnt take em out of fear and thinking every woman was a size queen, because it seemed that way. I know now that not every woman is a size queen and that average or above average is okay generally. But who just wants to be okay? Especially with a woman you love or wanna commit the rest of your life to?
I’ve had really great sex with some women and ultimately still dont think I’ve ever experienced the sheer desire and lust ive seen women, sometimes those same women ive been with, show to a well endowed dude. And I dont hate well endowed guys, they just got blessed with something out of their control. Nor do I hate women who prefer them, women deserve to have the best sex possible and it seems based off personal experience and what I see in the world that the best sex comes from a big dude with skill. Just the harsh truth of life.
But yeah, all that to say I believe relationships and marriages are for hung guys. Not saying its the only factor for a successful marriage or relationship, it isnt by a long shot. But I’ve seen sex break down so many otherwise good relationships and marriages. Or some dude get cheated on cause a well endowed guy from a girl’s past pops back up. Definitely dont want that to happen to me. Open to hearing different thoughts and perspectives though.
