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I went to see a friend I haven't seen in many years, almost since teens. We are still good friends, but it's obvious puberty was much kinder to him than me. He is now a chadlite or almost Chad. He just life mogs me everywhere, looks mogs me, career mogs me, happiness mogs me.
For my birthday a few days ago he took me to a restaurant. Once we are there, the waitress comes up and instantly starts talking to him (I am sitting right there but never says a word to me, barely even acknowledged I exist). For several times, minutes at a time, she would come up and interrupt our conversation to keep talking to him about random shit asking him questions. She asked why we are here and I say, it's my birthday, she looks at me for 3 seconds and says happy birthday, then goes back to talking to him. She would talk for 3-5 minutes at a time, leave, then come back again a few minutes later to do the same.
After we left she left her number on the receipt for him. He is also married, by the way.
I don't dislike him, he is a cool dude I have known since childhood, but shit like this seriously made the day so much worse than it usually is. I am already very depressed on my birthdays for years now, my last few I spent alone drinking all day, and what was supposed to cheer you up just ends up making you feel worse for daring to go outside. That's why I always say, as an ugly neurotic male, just never go outside. You cannot ever win.
as usual, personality doesn't matter for absolute shit. She was some "artist" or something, and my friend literally knows absolutely 0 things about art, he plays call of duty all day and listens to rap, yet she kept saying how impressive his knowledge was about it. Meanwhile I spent my entire youth wasting time on music, painting, drawing, literature, etc. She never even asked me a single question about anything.
You can't escape the blackpill anywhere or reminders that you're trash. It just never ends.
For my birthday a few days ago he took me to a restaurant. Once we are there, the waitress comes up and instantly starts talking to him (I am sitting right there but never says a word to me, barely even acknowledged I exist). For several times, minutes at a time, she would come up and interrupt our conversation to keep talking to him about random shit asking him questions. She asked why we are here and I say, it's my birthday, she looks at me for 3 seconds and says happy birthday, then goes back to talking to him. She would talk for 3-5 minutes at a time, leave, then come back again a few minutes later to do the same.
After we left she left her number on the receipt for him. He is also married, by the way.
I don't dislike him, he is a cool dude I have known since childhood, but shit like this seriously made the day so much worse than it usually is. I am already very depressed on my birthdays for years now, my last few I spent alone drinking all day, and what was supposed to cheer you up just ends up making you feel worse for daring to go outside. That's why I always say, as an ugly neurotic male, just never go outside. You cannot ever win.
as usual, personality doesn't matter for absolute shit. She was some "artist" or something, and my friend literally knows absolutely 0 things about art, he plays call of duty all day and listens to rap, yet she kept saying how impressive his knowledge was about it. Meanwhile I spent my entire youth wasting time on music, painting, drawing, literature, etc. She never even asked me a single question about anything.
You can't escape the blackpill anywhere or reminders that you're trash. It just never ends.
You need a bad personality to survive in this hellscape brocel. From now on, you will tell NPC's to fuck off if they get in your way. As blackpillers, we dont have a whole lot to lose and once people see that, they think twice about messing with you. Even BagelCel who is a midget like me can go ER which makes him a huge threat to soyciety. As more and more cases of people going ER arise nowdays, people tend to think more about messing with you.
