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ionlycopenow
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So the other day I decided to go to the mall. As soon as I stepped in I regretted that decision and remembered why I rarely go out. Immediately I feel out of place, like a freak. I think okay, maybe Im just over thinking it. I try to go to footlocker and nobody greeted me. Okay, whatever. Then I see a few people walk in after me. They all get greeted. Then they all get the standard "everything ok" and then some even started a conversation about shoes they were looking at. of course it was NT normie shoes and I was looking at uncool ones I guess which only multiplied all the non NT failos I already have going in. So the first store I'm in i already see that I have a big red "non NT subhuman" sign over my head every normie can read.
So basically I tried going into other places and the exact same shit happened every single time. It legit started to bother me so I went to the bathroom to see if maybe something's wrong with my clothes or if I look angry. Nothing was wrong. I just had to remind myself I was ugly and probably came off as really weird in my mannerisms as well.
Ended up leaving feeling worse about myself than before I left trying to "go out more".
I was walking around alone like a loser as well and everyone had massive 5+ friend groups or a couple. Incel trait as well
Tl;dr going outside you'll always be reminded how much of a subhuman non NT freak you are.
So basically I tried going into other places and the exact same shit happened every single time. It legit started to bother me so I went to the bathroom to see if maybe something's wrong with my clothes or if I look angry. Nothing was wrong. I just had to remind myself I was ugly and probably came off as really weird in my mannerisms as well.
Ended up leaving feeling worse about myself than before I left trying to "go out more".
I was walking around alone like a loser as well and everyone had massive 5+ friend groups or a couple. Incel trait as well
Tl;dr going outside you'll always be reminded how much of a subhuman non NT freak you are.