Two years ago over a single week I took three visits to a therapist. My main problem was that I felt like doing nothing all day, had 0 motivation, couldn’t focus on anything and was just LDARing.
Back then I didn’t fully understood that your mental state is directly tied to how people are treating you which is directly tied to your looks and status so you can’t really do anything about it, and that LDARing is just mental consequence of having zero positive interactions with outside world – I though that I have some “mental problem” that can be fixed with guidance of a professional.
Year before that I ditched taking SSRIs that they hooked me on in high school and so psychologist said that my “treatment” is concluded and suggested that I should take therapy as a next step. She recommended some guy, but upon calling there I found out that he’s pediatric psychologist and doesn’t take in any patients over the age of 16. Sometimes I wonder if she was trolling me by recommending therapist for kids
Anyway, I was kinda of lost as to which therapist should I choose, but some nigga that I was “””friends””” with wholeheartedly recommended therapist that he went to before.
First red flag was that it was a woman, but I though that if someone who I know recommends her then whatever, why not.
Second red flag was that bitch looked like gargamel from smurfs, but I thought to myself that I shouldn’t judge people by their looks (huge mistake).
She asked what is my problem and I said same stuff as at the beginning of this post.
Whole convo was so bizarre – literally five minutes after being there she asked me dead serious if I’m psychopath and if I’m manipulating people (wtf).
Conversation went onto my school experiences, I told I was bullied but I didn’t knew what to tell when she asked for specific examples, I don’t keep some fucking tally of other peoples wrongs in my head, even now I’d have to think for solid few minutes to list something specific, besides, anyone knows that nobody likes to reminiscent about this stuff, people keep it buried deep in their memories, I only remember specific situations when something that I read or see reminds me of it.
I though that a fucking therapist would know that
I told that I had hard time handling material in tech school that I went to in high school and she replied in condescending tone “well, all other people who went there were already learning these things before because they were interested in subject that they picked”
I’m sorry, what?
Do you guys know a single person who was learning about electrical engineering or computer networks in middle school in their free time? Please let me know if you do.
She started some sort of personality/mental disorder test, it went on for rest of first visit and entirety of second visit. I was really curious what the results on third visit will be – I never got to know.
On third visit she completely forgot about the test.
She asked what did I do to get a job since last visit (it’s been two days) and when I said I haven’t looked into it yet she started giving me flak – going on about how I’m lazy and not doing anything etc.
At some point she looked at me weird and after moment of silence went onto odd seemingly unrelated tirade about worldviews and shit - I think she literally started implying that I’m evil racist chud for no reason (keep in mind, we didn’t talk about race or politics up to this point, it was completely out of the blue)
I remember that at this point I was seriously wondering if she’s drunk (before that she tripped on carpet in these goofy Kanye West boots that she was wearing)
That was it, that was entire third visit, I never got to know what was result of a test that she forgot about and it was just hour and a half of her giving me shit for not being productive member of society in similar way any other random normie would.
I still can’t wrap my head around how weird this whole interaction over three visits was:
“I can’t find motivation or focus to do anything”
“Are you psychopath? Here do this test – test? What test? Why are you evil chud? *trips on carpet* You’re just lazy, just go do something”
Overall, absolutely zero attempt to understand my situation or get any info from me, I might have as well just pay some random redditor to listen to me and I would probably get better results.
I could have spend that time and money going three times to cheapest prostitute instead and it would still be more of a net positive for me even if I caught crabs.
Did you had any bizarre experiences with therapists or psychologists yourself?
Back then I didn’t fully understood that your mental state is directly tied to how people are treating you which is directly tied to your looks and status so you can’t really do anything about it, and that LDARing is just mental consequence of having zero positive interactions with outside world – I though that I have some “mental problem” that can be fixed with guidance of a professional.
Year before that I ditched taking SSRIs that they hooked me on in high school and so psychologist said that my “treatment” is concluded and suggested that I should take therapy as a next step. She recommended some guy, but upon calling there I found out that he’s pediatric psychologist and doesn’t take in any patients over the age of 16. Sometimes I wonder if she was trolling me by recommending therapist for kids
Anyway, I was kinda of lost as to which therapist should I choose, but some nigga that I was “””friends””” with wholeheartedly recommended therapist that he went to before.
First red flag was that it was a woman, but I though that if someone who I know recommends her then whatever, why not.
Second red flag was that bitch looked like gargamel from smurfs, but I thought to myself that I shouldn’t judge people by their looks (huge mistake).
She asked what is my problem and I said same stuff as at the beginning of this post.
Whole convo was so bizarre – literally five minutes after being there she asked me dead serious if I’m psychopath and if I’m manipulating people (wtf
).Conversation went onto my school experiences, I told I was bullied but I didn’t knew what to tell when she asked for specific examples, I don’t keep some fucking tally of other peoples wrongs in my head, even now I’d have to think for solid few minutes to list something specific, besides, anyone knows that nobody likes to reminiscent about this stuff, people keep it buried deep in their memories, I only remember specific situations when something that I read or see reminds me of it.
I though that a fucking therapist would know that
I told that I had hard time handling material in tech school that I went to in high school and she replied in condescending tone “well, all other people who went there were already learning these things before because they were interested in subject that they picked
”I’m sorry, what?
Do you guys know a single person who was learning about electrical engineering or computer networks in middle school in their free time? Please let me know if you do.
She started some sort of personality/mental disorder test, it went on for rest of first visit and entirety of second visit. I was really curious what the results on third visit will be – I never got to know.
On third visit she completely forgot about the test.
She asked what did I do to get a job since last visit (it’s been two days) and when I said I haven’t looked into it yet she started giving me flak – going on about how I’m lazy and not doing anything etc.
At some point she looked at me weird and after moment of silence went onto odd seemingly unrelated tirade about worldviews and shit - I think she literally started implying that I’m evil racist chud for no reason (keep in mind, we didn’t talk about race or politics up to this point, it was completely out of the blue)
I remember that at this point I was seriously wondering if she’s drunk (before that she tripped on carpet in these goofy Kanye West boots that she was wearing)
That was it, that was entire third visit, I never got to know what was result of a test that she forgot about and it was just hour and a half of her giving me shit for not being productive member of society in similar way any other random normie would.
I still can’t wrap my head around how weird this whole interaction over three visits was:
“I can’t find motivation or focus to do anything”
“Are you psychopath? Here do this test – test? What test? Why are you evil chud? *trips on carpet* You’re just lazy, just go do something”
Overall, absolutely zero attempt to understand my situation or get any info from me, I might have as well just pay some random redditor to listen to me and I would probably get better results.
I could have spend that time and money going three times to cheapest prostitute instead and it would still be more of a net positive for me even if I caught crabs.
Did you had any bizarre experiences with therapists or psychologists yourself?
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