When I was in kindergarten we had very good mentor teacher and I had very hard anxiety that I couldnt even go to pee during sleep time, I had been constantly peeing my bed and was bullied because of this, but once she had a talk to me after that relieved me out of this anxiety and then the last years after bullying I could make some good friends and never peeed my bed, I finally felt happy.
2nd when I was in elementary school I was very good at winning math competitions and once I got cold and passed precompetition test only being 4th from my class (you had to be 3rd at least), but there was some petite nerd girl that was 3rd and interceded for me to go to competition for her, and I went and won, as usual.
From this part it starts to become a brag thread. Yes, I know it, but I actually dont want to feel superior to anyone, I just want to make something that will give me hope and motivate myself by reminding yourself that not everything is lost and, if it could get some attention, make other lost souls to try to remember good things about their past and that maybe they can find their place under the sun. Yes, technically its a brag thread, but if I get banned , dear mods, dont delete it, like everything can happen and after my death I wish people who thinks Im somewhat worth their attention to read my personal posts (this is the reason my friends know my account and this post I consider very personal).
3rd. In 4th grade that petite nerd girl said that a girl from my class likes me, but I reacted inadequate because I simply didnt like that girl, she acted very noisy and did stupid jokes all of the time. Then there was a huge story of her being bullied and leaving my school and when I met her in 6th grade she said "You understand nothing", so it is how it is, Im 20 now and I still dont understand how life and relationships with people work at all.
4th in 8th grade there was female english teacher and she proposed me to go on special individual schooling and did everything to help me with documenting and arranging everything, I had bad paresis problem, I had mental breakdowns during lessons and was constantly bullied. I didnt know of option of individual schooling at all, but thanks to her I could finally breathe free air.
5th (Brag) Once in 10th grade some girl from my school, one-two years younger than me, started talking to me to get to know me better, but I ran out of her because I thought that she hates me and just wants to make joke out of me, I didnt expect that maybe she could like me, but now it gives me hope that maybe I could get a girl, interested in me.
6th In 11th grade I went back to normal schooling because I wanted to overcome my severe anxiety problems and I was really good friends with russian and litherature teacher, and she did a great job to protect me from bullies, yes, I still dont agree completly with her, like I felt like I need to do it myself, but lets be honest, could I, mentally weak and fragile, do it myself? Probably not.
7th when I was 19, I went fully NEEt mode and I had very severe depersonalization breakdown, so I went to female psychiatrist, who knows me well and she suggested me to make me schizobuxes she told my father everything to do so and guided us well in juridical and practical part, and thanks to her now I have my schizobuxes, even though my diagnosis (pseudoneurotic schizophrenia) isnt considered fully disabling me from work.
Eh, so, its probably all, I didnt include my relatives and something I cant remember. I had some foids that treated me rally bad, especially when I went to english study school, they hated and bullied me, but these storyes make me believe that there are " NAWALTs" and give me a lot of hope.
Eh, actually my head ache went away, so, even if it gets no replies, it wasnt in a vain
2nd when I was in elementary school I was very good at winning math competitions and once I got cold and passed precompetition test only being 4th from my class (you had to be 3rd at least), but there was some petite nerd girl that was 3rd and interceded for me to go to competition for her, and I went and won, as usual.
From this part it starts to become a brag thread. Yes, I know it, but I actually dont want to feel superior to anyone, I just want to make something that will give me hope and motivate myself by reminding yourself that not everything is lost and, if it could get some attention, make other lost souls to try to remember good things about their past and that maybe they can find their place under the sun. Yes, technically its a brag thread, but if I get banned , dear mods, dont delete it, like everything can happen and after my death I wish people who thinks Im somewhat worth their attention to read my personal posts (this is the reason my friends know my account and this post I consider very personal).
3rd. In 4th grade that petite nerd girl said that a girl from my class likes me, but I reacted inadequate because I simply didnt like that girl, she acted very noisy and did stupid jokes all of the time. Then there was a huge story of her being bullied and leaving my school and when I met her in 6th grade she said "You understand nothing", so it is how it is, Im 20 now and I still dont understand how life and relationships with people work at all.
4th in 8th grade there was female english teacher and she proposed me to go on special individual schooling and did everything to help me with documenting and arranging everything, I had bad paresis problem, I had mental breakdowns during lessons and was constantly bullied. I didnt know of option of individual schooling at all, but thanks to her I could finally breathe free air.
5th (Brag) Once in 10th grade some girl from my school, one-two years younger than me, started talking to me to get to know me better, but I ran out of her because I thought that she hates me and just wants to make joke out of me, I didnt expect that maybe she could like me, but now it gives me hope that maybe I could get a girl, interested in me.
6th In 11th grade I went back to normal schooling because I wanted to overcome my severe anxiety problems and I was really good friends with russian and litherature teacher, and she did a great job to protect me from bullies, yes, I still dont agree completly with her, like I felt like I need to do it myself, but lets be honest, could I, mentally weak and fragile, do it myself? Probably not.
7th when I was 19, I went fully NEEt mode and I had very severe depersonalization breakdown, so I went to female psychiatrist, who knows me well and she suggested me to make me schizobuxes she told my father everything to do so and guided us well in juridical and practical part, and thanks to her now I have my schizobuxes, even though my diagnosis (pseudoneurotic schizophrenia) isnt considered fully disabling me from work.
Eh, so, its probably all, I didnt include my relatives and something I cant remember. I had some foids that treated me rally bad, especially when I went to english study school, they hated and bullied me, but these storyes make me believe that there are " NAWALTs" and give me a lot of hope.
Eh, actually my head ache went away, so, even if it gets no replies, it wasnt in a vain
