I am already basically out of the "18 to 25 yo" age group, despite looking younger, yet these 7 years approximately are always said to be "The best time of your life".
...
How?
It literally was argubly - I wouldn't say the worst - but the most boring and fundamental regressing time of my life.
18 and 19 was still good I was in Highschool - and then everything Fell apart. Between 19 and late 20 I did all kinds of odd jobs. 12 or so jobs that all payed jackshit and all were HORRIBLE. Awful jobs, stressful, annoying customers, asshole employees and some shit always happened because my ADHD distracted me from just the utter boredom or annoyance of doing random shit like cleaning windows or sorting trash or data entry.
21 to 24 was just college. Half of it was over Zoom due to corona. Every day was just Plandemic, rotting at home or taking a walk. I was kinda fearful of Corona.
For me it was seemingly longer then for most others. I literally stayed at home.
I was always wondering why the Virus was still spreading so much - apparently most people did not have to luxury to just stay at home with their parents...that said I moved out at 2023 when Corona was already over for a year.
2024 to basically was just work...like there is nothing fun about my job. It's boring, stressful, annoying because after DECADES or sitting in front of a screen...I kinda am sick of it now.
I AM LITERALLY SICK of the screen. You might as well not expect many posts from my anymore because of it.
My goal for 2025 was 3 hours max on the phone and i am already at 5 again.
I also had a to of health issues lately. Past 2 years.
Having eczema or skin diseases or some shit or even having a influenca infection.
Argubly throughout the past 7 years I was sitting in front of a screen for either school or work or copes - havent touched a game in almost 2 years now besides 2 weeks ago when I tried to play Horizon Forbbiden West on my old PS4 and got bored 2 hours into the game.
"Best years of your life".
My mother came into my room 3.5 years ago and asked me this. "Best years of your life" why arent you partying? Why arent you having sex? Get some hobbies!?
I said - and I was not blackpilled, just redpilled, I know chicks were awful, had enough experience - too expensive. Like these Clubs and going there alone - without friends isnt working, I told her.
And why should I Party? For what? For having a shit life so far? Should I celebrate being born into a disabled, dysfunctional, poor ass family? Should I cheer for the Amazon Forest Fire? (at that time) Should I buy some expensive vine for the 8 Billion humans population broken? (cant belive we are already closing in on 8.3 billion now)
My mother quickly got my points, she still insisted to get a girlfriend - like I haven't tried for since I was 10 with none of the chicks even liking me, TRYHARDED for one even. My mother didn't even know how fucking TRYHARD I was for girls in Highschool, especially my first one.
She was completely oblivious of my school life.
Eventually I told her "I don't have the money for a girlfriend" she got that point as well.
I didn't know the terminus "betabuxx" but everybody knows women are fucking expensive. They all want to travel, shop all the time and drive expensive cars, meanwhile I could only think about the desperation of the future.
The inflation, even 5 or 6 years ago I know inflation would hit Germany hard.
In late 2023 close before I wrote my Bachelor Thesis a Prof told me "Why are you so depressed or in a bad mood? This is THE BEST YEARS OF YOUR LIFE!"
Meanwhile I was severaly depressed from all the stress for exams and the stock market. At 23/24 I was truly burned the fuck out.
Even know mentally I am fucking finished. The blackpill might have done it worse even tho i am not nearly as depressed anymore. I truly dont give a shit anymore.
At this point I dont have anything to lose. My job? I dont really care. Its not like I WANT to be there. My laptop is breaking down after 6 years of usage. Sad. But barely care.
Gym exhausted me and despte that i wanted to do more thid year, i have not trained much.
Past 3 months i have not trained much and lost a lot of gains - this shit goes fast. Like if you give up yout workout for a couple weeks or months, you lose muscle mass fast.
Best years of your life...meanwhile I sit in utter darkness right now...going towards the end of my "Best years of your life".
2 more months and I will be 26. Crazy. I mean maybe I will still see Warren Buffet bite the grass before I do so myself. Now that guy, that guy had a "Best years of your life" and argubly all of them. Not just 7 pathetic years of a miserable Gen Z male experience.
...
How?
It literally was argubly - I wouldn't say the worst - but the most boring and fundamental regressing time of my life.
18 and 19 was still good I was in Highschool - and then everything Fell apart. Between 19 and late 20 I did all kinds of odd jobs. 12 or so jobs that all payed jackshit and all were HORRIBLE. Awful jobs, stressful, annoying customers, asshole employees and some shit always happened because my ADHD distracted me from just the utter boredom or annoyance of doing random shit like cleaning windows or sorting trash or data entry.
21 to 24 was just college. Half of it was over Zoom due to corona. Every day was just Plandemic, rotting at home or taking a walk. I was kinda fearful of Corona.
For me it was seemingly longer then for most others. I literally stayed at home.
I was always wondering why the Virus was still spreading so much - apparently most people did not have to luxury to just stay at home with their parents...that said I moved out at 2023 when Corona was already over for a year.
2024 to basically was just work...like there is nothing fun about my job. It's boring, stressful, annoying because after DECADES or sitting in front of a screen...I kinda am sick of it now.
I AM LITERALLY SICK of the screen. You might as well not expect many posts from my anymore because of it.
My goal for 2025 was 3 hours max on the phone and i am already at 5 again.
I also had a to of health issues lately. Past 2 years.
Having eczema or skin diseases or some shit or even having a influenca infection.
Argubly throughout the past 7 years I was sitting in front of a screen for either school or work or copes - havent touched a game in almost 2 years now besides 2 weeks ago when I tried to play Horizon Forbbiden West on my old PS4 and got bored 2 hours into the game.
"Best years of your life".
My mother came into my room 3.5 years ago and asked me this. "Best years of your life" why arent you partying? Why arent you having sex? Get some hobbies!?
I said - and I was not blackpilled, just redpilled, I know chicks were awful, had enough experience - too expensive. Like these Clubs and going there alone - without friends isnt working, I told her.
And why should I Party? For what? For having a shit life so far? Should I celebrate being born into a disabled, dysfunctional, poor ass family? Should I cheer for the Amazon Forest Fire? (at that time) Should I buy some expensive vine for the 8 Billion humans population broken? (cant belive we are already closing in on 8.3 billion now)
My mother quickly got my points, she still insisted to get a girlfriend - like I haven't tried for since I was 10 with none of the chicks even liking me, TRYHARDED for one even. My mother didn't even know how fucking TRYHARD I was for girls in Highschool, especially my first one.
She was completely oblivious of my school life.
Eventually I told her "I don't have the money for a girlfriend" she got that point as well.
I didn't know the terminus "betabuxx" but everybody knows women are fucking expensive. They all want to travel, shop all the time and drive expensive cars, meanwhile I could only think about the desperation of the future.
The inflation, even 5 or 6 years ago I know inflation would hit Germany hard.
In late 2023 close before I wrote my Bachelor Thesis a Prof told me "Why are you so depressed or in a bad mood? This is THE BEST YEARS OF YOUR LIFE!"
Meanwhile I was severaly depressed from all the stress for exams and the stock market. At 23/24 I was truly burned the fuck out.
Even know mentally I am fucking finished. The blackpill might have done it worse even tho i am not nearly as depressed anymore. I truly dont give a shit anymore.
At this point I dont have anything to lose. My job? I dont really care. Its not like I WANT to be there. My laptop is breaking down after 6 years of usage. Sad. But barely care.
Gym exhausted me and despte that i wanted to do more thid year, i have not trained much.
Past 3 months i have not trained much and lost a lot of gains - this shit goes fast. Like if you give up yout workout for a couple weeks or months, you lose muscle mass fast.
Best years of your life...meanwhile I sit in utter darkness right now...going towards the end of my "Best years of your life".
2 more months and I will be 26. Crazy. I mean maybe I will still see Warren Buffet bite the grass before I do so myself. Now that guy, that guy had a "Best years of your life" and argubly all of them. Not just 7 pathetic years of a miserable Gen Z male experience.
