Hello everyone. I was following the forum for a few months and I decided to make an account. Before I concentrate on the topic's subject let me introduce myself.
I am 18 years old. I live in Eastern Europe. I am learning in a secondary school now. In the future I want to work as a doctor, I am fond of medicine. But I don't imagine that because this job requires contact with people what makes me frightened, so I don't think too much about the future. But the most important information about me is why I'm an incel. The main reason is that I'm so short - 5'6 (in my country average men's height is 5'10). I have a round face without male characteristic countenance. It causes that I look like a 13 years old child which started maturating. I have never held a girl's hand, I have never been hugged by a girl, every time when I sit in a bus nobody wants to sit next to me. I was rejected by a hypergamic girl a few years ago, even I wrote a poem for her but she rejected me. 2 months after that she was in happy relationship with 6ft chad with square 10/10 face. I hate my body and I have just started smoking because I want to get away from this shit as fast as it's possible.
Let's move on to the topic's subject. In my opinion being intelligent as an incel makes pain stronger. I notice it every day. I learn well, I got a scholarship twice for great results in education. Every time when I got a good mark which satisfies me or when I can use my knowledge in practise I feel a bit sad. Especially I'm keen on on chemistry, nobody in my class could compete with me. Every time when I think about my achievements I got depression because I know that it won't make my situation better and it won't cause that I will have a girlfriend, wife, my own family, children etc. I think because of the depression I won't get to medicine university. It's very hard for me when every day on the school corridor I see young people kissing, hugging etc. All in all the worst in that is the awareness that I will never experience that feelings because I was born in a shit body which is a jail for my brain, which is more than average. Because of being intelligent I know straight what I want from life, I don't expect wild sex but only a relationship with a girl which may make ma happy. But it doesn't matter and my intelligence too, there is nothing to say if you are 5'6 in manlet. I can only say: it's over.
I am 18 years old. I live in Eastern Europe. I am learning in a secondary school now. In the future I want to work as a doctor, I am fond of medicine. But I don't imagine that because this job requires contact with people what makes me frightened, so I don't think too much about the future. But the most important information about me is why I'm an incel. The main reason is that I'm so short - 5'6 (in my country average men's height is 5'10). I have a round face without male characteristic countenance. It causes that I look like a 13 years old child which started maturating. I have never held a girl's hand, I have never been hugged by a girl, every time when I sit in a bus nobody wants to sit next to me. I was rejected by a hypergamic girl a few years ago, even I wrote a poem for her but she rejected me. 2 months after that she was in happy relationship with 6ft chad with square 10/10 face. I hate my body and I have just started smoking because I want to get away from this shit as fast as it's possible.
Let's move on to the topic's subject. In my opinion being intelligent as an incel makes pain stronger. I notice it every day. I learn well, I got a scholarship twice for great results in education. Every time when I got a good mark which satisfies me or when I can use my knowledge in practise I feel a bit sad. Especially I'm keen on on chemistry, nobody in my class could compete with me. Every time when I think about my achievements I got depression because I know that it won't make my situation better and it won't cause that I will have a girlfriend, wife, my own family, children etc. I think because of the depression I won't get to medicine university. It's very hard for me when every day on the school corridor I see young people kissing, hugging etc. All in all the worst in that is the awareness that I will never experience that feelings because I was born in a shit body which is a jail for my brain, which is more than average. Because of being intelligent I know straight what I want from life, I don't expect wild sex but only a relationship with a girl which may make ma happy. But it doesn't matter and my intelligence too, there is nothing to say if you are 5'6 in manlet. I can only say: it's over.
