Serious Being bullied fucked up my sexual development

[Stupid Clown]

My sexual development was fucked by being bullied/always put down to the extent that I was always put in a submissive position. I think this is why I can only get off of imagining myself being beaten/killed by women and not normal sex.

I legitimately can't get an erection while watching porn. I only get off weird hentai mangas and it's been this way forever

I wish I had a normal sexual appetite. I hate that my brain gets off being in a submissive position with roasties
Also can't get off unless violence is involved. Brutal

 

[fullofchagrin]

My sexual development was fucked by being bullied/always put down to the extent that I was always put in a submissive position. I think this is why I can only get off of imagining myself being beaten/killed by women and not normal sex.

I legitimately can't get an erection while watching porn. I only get off weird hentai mangas and it's been this way forever

I wish I had a normal sexual appetite. I hate that my brain gets off being in a submissive position with roasties
Also can't get off unless violence is involved. Brutal

i am also the same way. it's fucking brutal

 

[Stupid Clown]

i am also the same way. it's fucking brutal

 

[IRLJamie]

Also can't get off unless violence is involved. Brutal

If you were a foid no one would see it as a problem. It's their baseline desire in fact

It's only framed as a problem when it's a man that desires it

However, while i dont have desires of being submitted by holes, i have an opposite problem. i DONT HAVE the desire to dominate foids in the bedroom and satistfy them. Satisfying a population that i morally despise for their shitty behavior is not my desire. In fact whenever i have sex fantasies she is always on top and does it slowly, i dont do shit. I would never have the patience to do the active male part, what a waste of fucking time

 

[Stupid Clown]

If you were a foid no one would see it as a problem. It's their baseline desire in fact

It's only framed as a problem when it's a man that desires it

However, while i dont have desires of being submitted by holes, i have an opposite problem. i DONT HAVE the desire to dominate foids in the bedroom and satistfy them. Satisfying a population that i morally despise for their shitty behavior is not my desire. In fact whenever i have sex fantasies she is always on top and does it slowly, i dont do shit. I would never have the patience to do the active male part, what a waste of fucking time

Based for not wanting to satisfy women. I'm tryin to mentally train myself to be like that. You're mentally superior

 

[Mecoja]

Brutal. My case is different, i was always considered ugliest and my entire family never failed to make sure that i know that. So i never in my lifetime could imagine foid liking me. So i gave up and never tried before my life even started, i remember even in first grade staying far away from girls because my mom called me ugly all the time.

 

[Stupid Clown]

Brutal. My case is different, i was always considered ugliest and my entire family never failed to make sure that i know that. So i never in my lifetime could imagine foid liking me. So i gave up and never tried before my life even started, i remember even in first grade staying far away from girls because my mom called me ugly all the time.

That's fucking brutal. What a cruel mom

 

[m3nt4Lbl0ck3d]

Being raped of any self esteem constantly through the precious years of fundamental development will do that to you. It was over before we even knew the game finished.

 

[Stupid Clown]

Being raped of any self esteem constantly through the precious years of fundamental development will do that to you. It was over before we even knew the game finished.

 

[Foidfolder]

i was wondering if anyone here would be into femdom stuff, It didnt make sense at first but i can see how being bullied can lead to stuff like that. fucking brutal.

 

[IRLJamie]

Based for not wanting to satisfy women. I'm tryin to mentally train myself to be like that. You're mentally superior

while biologically i would feel bad if some men or women, shamed me for not being manly, cognitively i dont care. Once the magid halo around foids disappear, why should i want to attach a positive word "manliness" to delude myself that serving a people whose moral i detest is better that not being able to do it?
The same i think for this matter in bed than out of bed with foids. So ok biologically i suffer when i think that being not tall foids see me on tre street and think "he should not be alive" but cognitively say "why would i want to be tall so that she feels protected around me? I dont want to protect these monsters, it's not like they're someone i admire like Hitler or Goebbels"

If in the future i get some foid- highly improbable - so not only sex, but everything will be a problem. Because feminism fucked my natural desidre to care and provide for foids and feeling good about it. So many contrasting messages. The only sex i'd like is her on top and me not doing shit. Because in my brain and psyche, whenever i'm doing something good for a foid, i'm being used. Biologically that's not how a man thinks, he instead thinks "i'm alpha i'm a good person i'm happy making my woman happy" but cognitively i know i'm contributing to the oppression of men

 

[Stupid Clown]

while biologically i would feel bad if some men or women, shamed me for not being manly, cognitively i dont care. Once the magid halo around foids disappear, why should i want to attach a positive word "manliness" to delude myself that serving a people whose moral i detest is better that not being able to do it?
The same i think for this matter in bed than out of bed with foids. So ok biologically i suffer when i think that being not tall foids see me on tre street and think "he should not be alive" but cognitively say "why would i want to be tall so that she feels protected around me? I dont want to protect these monsters, it's not like they're someone i admire like Hitler or Goebbels"

If in the future i get some foid- highly improbable - so not only sex, but everything will be a problem. Because feminism fucked my natural desidre to care and provide for foids and feeling good about it. So many contrasting messages. The only sex i'd like is her on top and me not doing shit. Because in my brain and psyche, whenever i'm doing something good for a foid, i'm being used. Biologically that's not how a man thinks, he instead thinks "i'm alpha i'm a good person i'm happy making my woman happy" but cognitively i know i'm contributing to the oppression of men

Good post. Being able to surpass your base biological instincts is another superior trait. A sign your brain has properly adapted in response to circumstances. Being able to let go of desire to protect women is not something many can do.

 

[BurntIvoryKingcel]

i was wondering if anyone here would be into femdom stuff, It didnt make sense at first but i can see how being bullied can lead to stuff like that. fucking brutal.

still doesn't make sense

 

[Foidfolder]

still doesn't make sense

fetishes and stuff dont really follow much logic tbh. this stuff is just kinda freudian in nature

 

[Mecoja]

Being raped of any self esteem constantly through the precious years of fundamental development will do that to you. It was over before we even knew the game finished.

This also, when people put you down during puberty you never gain the sexual confidence to be a man. I still feel like scared kid.

 

[Stupid Clown]

This also, when people put you down during puberty you never gain the sexual confidence to be a man. I still feel like scared kid.

Same.

 

[fullofchagrin]

My sexual development was fucked by being bullied/always put down to the extent that I was always put in a submissive position. I think this is why I can only get off of imagining myself being beaten/killed by women and not normal sex.

I legitimately can't get an erection while watching porn. I only get off weird hentai mangas and it's been this way forever

I wish I had a normal sexual appetite. I hate that my brain gets off being in a submissive position with roasties
Also can't get off unless violence is involved. Brutal

ive been wanting to post about this for a while but was afraid i would be shunned so I didn't, thank you for starting this thread.

have you ever tried to "fix" your sexual desires?

 

[Stupid Clown]

ive been wanting to post about this for a while but was afraid i would be shunned so I didn't, thank you for starting this thread.

have you ever tried to "fix" your sexual desires?

It's basically impossible for me. Wbu?

 

[fullofchagrin]

It's basically impossible for me. Wbu?

i never even tried i don't know what i could do to try. normoids say nofap but obv that doesn't work. i masturbated for the first time in my life when i was 15 yo, yet i was always this way since before i started puberty

 

[Kanye's Cousin]

I think being an incel with low self esteem will make a guy develop a bit of femdom. We're pathetic and women have this power over us. Just last week I had a massage whore start slapping me because I randomly wanted to give it a shot, but I enjoyed it so much that now femdom is what gets my libido running.

 

[parahoy]

I’m in a similar position, I was always put down and nobody would ever help. It felt so embarrassing and brutal.

 

[Rapistcel]

My sexual development was fucked by being bullied/always put down to the extent that I was always put in a submissive position. I think this is why I can only get off of imagining myself being beaten/killed by women and not normal sex.

I legitimately can't get an erection while watching porn. I only get off weird hentai mangas and it's been this way forever

I wish I had a normal sexual appetite. I hate that my brain gets off being in a submissive position with roasties
Also can't get off unless violence is involved. Brutal

You are lucky you were homeschooled by some time

 

[La Grande *Infamie*]

My oneitis would talk shit about me and I’d get hard

 

[Stupid Clown]

My oneitis would talk shit about me and I’d get hard

Brutal