I used to believe in god, lol at that shitty cope.
I remember when I used to jack off to porn I would hate myself and punch myself and trying to put restrictions on me so I can’t watch porn with porn blockers.
when I did that, my brain was literally being tortured I kept guessing the passwords, and doing a whole bunch of shit.
it is impossible to stop ur desires of jacking off. I just end up jacking off to pictures or gifs of girls.
this nofap shit is impossible and relapse is inevitable and it is cope.
after being blackpilled and seeing what this world for what it is I lost all belief in god. There is no way god exists making our lives sufferable while others drown in gold and wine. Living lavish while u are begging for a single penny.
being blackpilled literally makes u see through all copes. Everything makes sense. I literally see it with my own two eyes. When I see someone’s face I’m scanning their maxilla, mandible and eye area.
i could rope right now, and finally be at peace. Finally eternally sleep. I’m not scared of death because why should I be? An incels life is pain.
but seeing my self ascend(hope) with surgeries to fix my Falios is too hard to give up on.
idk man this life is pain I just don’t understand. I know life is supposed to be fair, but it’s so unfair that it’s literally stacked against u.
im constantly living in my head making interactions that I will never have.
I remember when I used to jack off to porn I would hate myself and punch myself and trying to put restrictions on me so I can’t watch porn with porn blockers.
when I did that, my brain was literally being tortured I kept guessing the passwords, and doing a whole bunch of shit.
it is impossible to stop ur desires of jacking off. I just end up jacking off to pictures or gifs of girls.
this nofap shit is impossible and relapse is inevitable and it is cope.
after being blackpilled and seeing what this world for what it is I lost all belief in god. There is no way god exists making our lives sufferable while others drown in gold and wine. Living lavish while u are begging for a single penny.
being blackpilled literally makes u see through all copes. Everything makes sense. I literally see it with my own two eyes. When I see someone’s face I’m scanning their maxilla, mandible and eye area.
i could rope right now, and finally be at peace. Finally eternally sleep. I’m not scared of death because why should I be? An incels life is pain.
but seeing my self ascend(hope) with surgeries to fix my Falios is too hard to give up on.
idk man this life is pain I just don’t understand. I know life is supposed to be fair, but it’s so unfair that it’s literally stacked against u.
im constantly living in my head making interactions that I will never have.
