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Incel_Because_Short
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Before being made aware of how much being 5'4" negatively affected my ability to get a relationship with a woman, I was a very motivated person.
In my first year of University I was very studious, and I actually earned a 3.8 GPA. This was back when I was 17 and I wasn't aware of the blackpill. I also did this while I was working a part-time job, mind you, and I was also volunteering at a center to help people file their taxes while swimming and having general fitness goals. I was also learning French at that time, to be able to speak three languages in total (fluent in it right now).
Subconsciously, I got a lot of my motivation from the idea that one day, a girl would see how much of a catch I was and want to date me.
Then, I got blackpilled. It was always a splinter in my mind, but eventually I realized that everything I was trying to do to get a woman's attention was effortless. I reached a denial and anger phase, in which I responded by trying to be more assertive and lifting weights all the time. For most of University I still had hopes that I would land a girlfriend before I graduated.
Now I'm 23, I graduated from University two years ago, and I frankly don't care anymore. I lost all hope that a girl will ever be attracted to me, and with that all of my motivation to learn new things or lift weights religiously or do much of anything. I took the easy way out and enlisted in the military, doing what is essentially a paper pushing role. There are opportunities to get promoted, but I just don't give a fuck. I just do the bare minimum required to keep my job so that I can get paid. Five years of failed socialization made me not want to go outside much anymore. I go home, play video games, maybe drink, and that's it. I do the bare minimum required for fitness (counting calories and doing some bodyweight exercises), and if I get too horny I just spend money on escorts.
Men who are able to get women's attention and have girlfriends don't suffer from a lack of motivation. They have a glow about them that allows them to strive for better positions in life, to put more effort in at work and to socialize. All of this is granted by women, they are the ones that motivate you to work hard. Without any female attention in your life, it just seems pointless to do any more than the bare minimum required to keep you alive.
In my first year of University I was very studious, and I actually earned a 3.8 GPA. This was back when I was 17 and I wasn't aware of the blackpill. I also did this while I was working a part-time job, mind you, and I was also volunteering at a center to help people file their taxes while swimming and having general fitness goals. I was also learning French at that time, to be able to speak three languages in total (fluent in it right now).
Subconsciously, I got a lot of my motivation from the idea that one day, a girl would see how much of a catch I was and want to date me.
Then, I got blackpilled. It was always a splinter in my mind, but eventually I realized that everything I was trying to do to get a woman's attention was effortless. I reached a denial and anger phase, in which I responded by trying to be more assertive and lifting weights all the time. For most of University I still had hopes that I would land a girlfriend before I graduated.
Now I'm 23, I graduated from University two years ago, and I frankly don't care anymore. I lost all hope that a girl will ever be attracted to me, and with that all of my motivation to learn new things or lift weights religiously or do much of anything. I took the easy way out and enlisted in the military, doing what is essentially a paper pushing role. There are opportunities to get promoted, but I just don't give a fuck. I just do the bare minimum required to keep my job so that I can get paid. Five years of failed socialization made me not want to go outside much anymore. I go home, play video games, maybe drink, and that's it. I do the bare minimum required for fitness (counting calories and doing some bodyweight exercises), and if I get too horny I just spend money on escorts.
Men who are able to get women's attention and have girlfriends don't suffer from a lack of motivation. They have a glow about them that allows them to strive for better positions in life, to put more effort in at work and to socialize. All of this is granted by women, they are the ones that motivate you to work hard. Without any female attention in your life, it just seems pointless to do any more than the bare minimum required to keep you alive.