I used to think it was because I never went out, but when i started drinking with my boys I started to try to talk to women, booze rush, trying out redpill shit, because I used to be romantic and failed miserably, I remenber once in my birthday i was hanging out with my friends and they invited some bitches, and alcowhores and my chad friend was given a lap dance and when they said dance to the birthday boy being humilliated, rejected and laughted at FUCK that memory and still I did not know the reason why when there was a party women would reject me, I used to lie to my friends telling them that i fucked women in other partys, but i loved the guys cool ass normies, and a chad (REDPILLED) would say i was smart and if i cried they tell me it´s ok bro, damn the feels, the memories, fuck women and their bullshit, now I know why they liked my poems and "frienship" (We cannot be friends with women they only use us) but never something else...
So before I thought it was my socially awkardness, but i had this metaphysical idea that their is a SOULMATE out their for me and that we all find true love in the end FUCK makes me cry that, thats not true...OH and the lack of money of course.
