During his testimony, Bekmansurov said that before and after the shooting at PGNIU everything seemed unreal to him - as if he was watching what was happening from the outside. He considered different ways to commit suicide, but he said he "didn't have the guts" to make up his mind. The desire to die became the motive for the crime. Bekmansurov wanted to be killed when he was arrested.
[28] Bekmansurov's read-out testimony showed that he did not remember killing some people on the day of the shooting. He also said that he had never developed relationships with his peers and was ridiculed in the first grade.
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