I have been inactive for a while, my mind has been racing from topic to topic. I've been off and on the darkweb, asking my self why i went their, i wish that i didnt. Questioning my morality and all. I was 13 when i started now im 18 its almost 5 years. Not to mention i want to start reading, and better my self, etc.
Recently Got a job, at a fast food place, did the training, and all. But lately things have been going down lately. Ever since training days, i was always the one who had issues, i made mistakes, it seemed like i was the only one making mistakes. Was told to hurry up, the customers are waiting, was also told not to take to long. To me it always seemed like i was working the same pace. I did majority of the cleaning,
Which is something the others seemed not wanting to do. Also had to do porpcorn chicken which takes along time, yestarday i managed to come up with shortcuts, whuch could cut the time. Oh ya, did i forget to mention that barely no one wants to do evening shifts but im the one whos mainly schedule for it.
another bad reputation thing i did, was take a pop, and didn't pay for it, he mentioned ive seen do that before, but i caught you today, he said if you do that one more time your gone, you wotn come here anymore, to me in my head i was shocked, very shocked, also had some sort of grudge for a moment. But i was glad i got another chance
I Can feel the animosity rising towards me especially from this indian co-worker who mogs me and is taller than me, whos laso closer to the boss. He probably things im stupid. I cant imagine the things they talk about me sincei dont speak hindi.
Now looking back at it, i guess i was just happy i got a job, i was glad i could socialize and talk to people. I ended forgetting i was an incel, and about the blackpill. This could have all been avoided if i remmebered what rehab room said never give people a reason to hate you when your an incel. I can't risk getting fired, getting a job is already hard enough i might not be able to find another one.
Its all tiresome.
My mom made me call him and ask whats my shift for sunday he cut my hours he said 12- 4or 5, its usally more than 5 hours. Its very clear i could loose my job aka get fired. I think im gonna start drinking coffee hopely i don't overdose on caffeine. Idk ill stop here, if only i didnt forget i was an incel.
Recently Got a job, at a fast food place, did the training, and all. But lately things have been going down lately. Ever since training days, i was always the one who had issues, i made mistakes, it seemed like i was the only one making mistakes. Was told to hurry up, the customers are waiting, was also told not to take to long. To me it always seemed like i was working the same pace. I did majority of the cleaning,
Which is something the others seemed not wanting to do. Also had to do porpcorn chicken which takes along time, yestarday i managed to come up with shortcuts, whuch could cut the time. Oh ya, did i forget to mention that barely no one wants to do evening shifts but im the one whos mainly schedule for it.
another bad reputation thing i did, was take a pop, and didn't pay for it, he mentioned ive seen do that before, but i caught you today, he said if you do that one more time your gone, you wotn come here anymore, to me in my head i was shocked, very shocked, also had some sort of grudge for a moment. But i was glad i got another chance
I Can feel the animosity rising towards me especially from this indian co-worker who mogs me and is taller than me, whos laso closer to the boss. He probably things im stupid. I cant imagine the things they talk about me sincei dont speak hindi.
Now looking back at it, i guess i was just happy i got a job, i was glad i could socialize and talk to people. I ended forgetting i was an incel, and about the blackpill. This could have all been avoided if i remmebered what rehab room said never give people a reason to hate you when your an incel. I can't risk getting fired, getting a job is already hard enough i might not be able to find another one.
Its all tiresome.
My mom made me call him and ask whats my shift for sunday he cut my hours he said 12- 4or 5, its usally more than 5 hours. Its very clear i could loose my job aka get fired. I think im gonna start drinking coffee hopely i don't overdose on caffeine. Idk ill stop here, if only i didnt forget i was an incel.
