i left .is before 2024 start and told me i will do whatever it takes to get gf this year.
so, i am sharing my story of what happened to me this whole year and i resisted my urge to join back .is as rotting here is so addictive.
I can now bench 90 kg at a body weight of 71 kg. I plan to start cardio in February 2025, but for now, my daily routine consists of following a push-pull-legs split that takes around 1.5 hours in the gym. Recently,
I failed my entrance and college exams, which has left me feeling lost. For a whole year, I tried to follow the textbook self-improvement path, yet I still am KHHV, with nothing better to do than hit the gym daily.
My days are filled with hitting the gym, preparing for exams, and fapping, which has become a monotonous cycle.
I read "Notes from Underground" by Dostoevsky every month; it feels like a reflection of my own life, as if someone is watching me. Overall, I’ve become painfully self-aware about my existence and am losing my will to live, as I see little reward for any of my efforts.
At 23 years old, I feel ancient on the internet. Social skills are giga cope for me. I tried to connect with some guys at the gym, but they sensed my social awkwardness. One guy, taller and more jacked than me, whom I thought was becoming a friend, betrayed me by spreading the word that I’m a KHHV virgin who gets zero attention from women. Recently, while discussing my back workout with another guy at the gym, I showed him a picture of my back. He complimented me by saying I looked huge in the photo but then went to his friends and made fun of me, sharing my awkwardness with them.
It’s as if I can’t make friends offline; I feel like an abused dog with no hope for recovery. The isolation and humiliation weigh heavily on me, leaving me feeling trapped in this cycle of loneliness.
While browsing r/lonely, I found someone to share what’s going on in my life with, but they ghosted me too.
while eating food i watch them on youtbe.
rehab room
healthygamergg
wheat waffles
coach black made a new channel i dont remember the name.
some gymcel content from
alex leonidas
natural hypertrophy
GVS
bald omni man
basement bodybuilding
etc
Overall, 2024 was again a brutal year for me, and now I am losing the will to continue. Whenever I sleep, I wake up with a boner—a side effect of the gym. The boner reminds me of my status as an incel right as I wake up.
i tried to initiate convo with some girls in gym but they didn't respond. and some were like why are you disturbing me stranger.
Even the receptionist at the gym, who greets everyone, ignores me.I told the receptionist that I am also doing X when I found out from someone that she is also doing X.
But she ignored me.
so, i am sharing my story of what happened to me this whole year and i resisted my urge to join back .is as rotting here is so addictive.
I can now bench 90 kg at a body weight of 71 kg. I plan to start cardio in February 2025, but for now, my daily routine consists of following a push-pull-legs split that takes around 1.5 hours in the gym. Recently,
I failed my entrance and college exams, which has left me feeling lost. For a whole year, I tried to follow the textbook self-improvement path, yet I still am KHHV, with nothing better to do than hit the gym daily.
My days are filled with hitting the gym, preparing for exams, and fapping, which has become a monotonous cycle.
I read "Notes from Underground" by Dostoevsky every month; it feels like a reflection of my own life, as if someone is watching me. Overall, I’ve become painfully self-aware about my existence and am losing my will to live, as I see little reward for any of my efforts.
At 23 years old, I feel ancient on the internet. Social skills are giga cope for me. I tried to connect with some guys at the gym, but they sensed my social awkwardness. One guy, taller and more jacked than me, whom I thought was becoming a friend, betrayed me by spreading the word that I’m a KHHV virgin who gets zero attention from women. Recently, while discussing my back workout with another guy at the gym, I showed him a picture of my back. He complimented me by saying I looked huge in the photo but then went to his friends and made fun of me, sharing my awkwardness with them.
It’s as if I can’t make friends offline; I feel like an abused dog with no hope for recovery. The isolation and humiliation weigh heavily on me, leaving me feeling trapped in this cycle of loneliness.
While browsing r/lonely, I found someone to share what’s going on in my life with, but they ghosted me too.
while eating food i watch them on youtbe.
rehab room
healthygamergg
wheat waffles
coach black made a new channel i dont remember the name.
some gymcel content from
alex leonidas
natural hypertrophy
GVS
bald omni man
basement bodybuilding
etc
Overall, 2024 was again a brutal year for me, and now I am losing the will to continue. Whenever I sleep, I wake up with a boner—a side effect of the gym. The boner reminds me of my status as an incel right as I wake up.
i tried to initiate convo with some girls in gym but they didn't respond. and some were like why are you disturbing me stranger.
Even the receptionist at the gym, who greets everyone, ignores me.I told the receptionist that I am also doing X when I found out from someone that she is also doing X.
But she ignored me.
