Live at home.
Father doesn't care.
Mom works for shit money like does unpaid desk overtime at home.
Blames me for all problems. Basically left me alone with my package since I am 12. Government clerks are dumb and basically don't understand my diagnosis and want to put me back into Jewlag for "complicated" young adults.
My room is gone to shit. So I use the kitchentable as my desk. Get hated daily for everything. Even though my mom has the biggest room of us 3 and it's not my fault living room is unfinished anyway. I think shes projecting inner problems on the "ugly" home and just scapegoating this because she neither does anything nor pays people. Really don't see the home situation unfixable for a normal person? I think what she really wants to say is she hates me. Thie really furthers my selfhate and apathy. I tried to stay low profile through ladr for years and now Im a wreck. Idk what to do. It's not that I am retarded I was IQ tested at 17. I don't wanna brag. But my depression+anxiety+asd/adhd/borderline is Crippling me.
Thanx to the people who answered in my last thread. Can't really cope I only have my bed and the kitchen table and my skin is itching makes me go insane and my vision is at only 40%. Doc destroaed my inner nose tissue cant take drugs or meds therefore. I try to go to psychiatry but I have no cloth and stuff is not fitting my lanky body and most stuff makes the itching worse. And then again they mostly ignored what I said there about my bleeding nose and pumped me full with psychotics. It's bad in Germany.
And tomorrow is autismtherapy and it already reeks like typical bootstraps "talk" therapy bs.
Father doesn't care.
Mom works for shit money like does unpaid desk overtime at home.
Blames me for all problems. Basically left me alone with my package since I am 12. Government clerks are dumb and basically don't understand my diagnosis and want to put me back into Jewlag for "complicated" young adults.
My room is gone to shit. So I use the kitchentable as my desk. Get hated daily for everything. Even though my mom has the biggest room of us 3 and it's not my fault living room is unfinished anyway. I think shes projecting inner problems on the "ugly" home and just scapegoating this because she neither does anything nor pays people. Really don't see the home situation unfixable for a normal person? I think what she really wants to say is she hates me. Thie really furthers my selfhate and apathy. I tried to stay low profile through ladr for years and now Im a wreck. Idk what to do. It's not that I am retarded I was IQ tested at 17. I don't wanna brag. But my depression+anxiety+asd/adhd/borderline is Crippling me.
Thanx to the people who answered in my last thread. Can't really cope I only have my bed and the kitchen table and my skin is itching makes me go insane and my vision is at only 40%. Doc destroaed my inner nose tissue cant take drugs or meds therefore. I try to go to psychiatry but I have no cloth and stuff is not fitting my lanky body and most stuff makes the itching worse. And then again they mostly ignored what I said there about my bleeding nose and pumped me full with psychotics. It's bad in Germany.
And tomorrow is autismtherapy and it already reeks like typical bootstraps "talk" therapy bs.
