In third grade (8-9 years old). ADHD. Had no friends, couldn't stand still in class. Always yelled at other people and walked around in the class room. Couldn't attend sports class, because I also suffered from respiratory disorders and disturbances of the eye-hand coordination. Wasn't on meds, because my mother is against medicaments. Visited dozens of therapists in my third/fourth year in school, all had different approaches. None of them worked.
In the fourth grade I was thrown to the ground on a playground and suffered head injuries- afterwards my condition worsened. I began to suffer from severe headaches and dizziness.
Fifth grade (10-11 years old). ADHD. Still had no friends. Was still a disruptive element in school. Had to undertake a neurological examination and CT-Scans of the brain under the suspision of a brain anomaly. Nothing was found. Had to stay at the psych-ward for the first time in my life. In order to influence brain activity I had to undertake neurofeedback-lessions. That was the condition for being allowed to stay in school.
For the next few years, I didn't visit psychiatrists. In eight/ninth grade I was sent to a psychiatrist for totally inappropriate behavior. Every psychiatrist diagnosed me with a different mental illness (from Asperger to ADHD/BPD).
My last years in school were uneventful, because I went the path of least resistance and stopped interacting with people. I started to consider myself as a hopeless case. I started to give up on life. When I tried to interact with others, they would only reject, so why should I bother to do so, when the results are the same. The entire mental-health-complex is a complete joke. They can't even find a proper diagnosis. A person like me is treated like a madman for hyperactive behavior, while a man, that wants to cut off his genitals/call himself woman is celebrated as a hero. Everything in this field is a complete scam.
