As many of you:
I recall bad experiences regarding my physical appearance since I was five years old.
As by today, I've endured more than two decades, 21 years of physical, mental and emotional misery, abuse and bullying, I've been denied basic human experiences, experiences that I'll never get back, my youth is gone and it's not coming back.
And due to my parents, bringing a life to this world despite being poor, I was also doomed to a life as a poor kid, bullied since I was five years old in every single aspect that other's could use as a weapon to make me suffer, I've been abused by my appearance, my clothes, my stuff, my face, my shoes, everything, I've been insulted at my face with everything that I never had, and I never asked for this life, so this one is 100% to my parents, who didn't think twice to bring me to this world and throwing me to a sentence of twenty years of abuse, not even killers or rapists get a sentence like this.
My teen years have been the worst, being used as the punchline of a joke for 10 years non-stop, I've never gotten a real girlfriend, no girls in my school even showed a little bit of interest on me, and due to my atrocious genetics and autism all thanks to my parents, and as just a boy I've been doomed to psychological and physical abuse for an entire decade, my worthless body couldn't ever get me into sports.
I've been racially abused and insulted and treated like shit since I can remember, I still remember when a cute girl in my class said loudly how she would never even walk with an ugly mutt like me, I didn't even talk to her some fucks were talking to her and asking her shit about what she thought about the boys in the classroom, I was twelve.
When I was sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, it only became worse, I couldn't even kiss a girl, or hold hands with one, I still remember how a girl started to treat me nice and letting me hug her but I'm fact she was using me to do all her homework, she was fucking two guys back then.
In the university, every single guy and girl there has a bf gf, all of them move in social circles, and you are less than furniture there if you don't behave like a regular normies, which I'm not. watching them live and enjoy their youth while I was a walking corpse almost led me to suicide.
and overall, right now after enduring twenty years of misery, I've given up.
That's it, I've given up, no more trying or fooling myself with wishful lies about how life gets better if you try or any other dumb shit like ascending, I will never get a beautiful blonde with me, I will never get rich, I will never change my face or my skin or my height, it's over, from now I'm going to sit and leech my neetbucks and play videogames all day while drinking until I die of some dumb shit like overdose or something.
don't get fooled by silly lies, if you are born as a sub 5 poor ethnic manlet, that's it, there's no magical fix, it's just "wait your death"
that's it.
I recall bad experiences regarding my physical appearance since I was five years old.
As by today, I've endured more than two decades, 21 years of physical, mental and emotional misery, abuse and bullying, I've been denied basic human experiences, experiences that I'll never get back, my youth is gone and it's not coming back.
And due to my parents, bringing a life to this world despite being poor, I was also doomed to a life as a poor kid, bullied since I was five years old in every single aspect that other's could use as a weapon to make me suffer, I've been abused by my appearance, my clothes, my stuff, my face, my shoes, everything, I've been insulted at my face with everything that I never had, and I never asked for this life, so this one is 100% to my parents, who didn't think twice to bring me to this world and throwing me to a sentence of twenty years of abuse, not even killers or rapists get a sentence like this.
My teen years have been the worst, being used as the punchline of a joke for 10 years non-stop, I've never gotten a real girlfriend, no girls in my school even showed a little bit of interest on me, and due to my atrocious genetics and autism all thanks to my parents, and as just a boy I've been doomed to psychological and physical abuse for an entire decade, my worthless body couldn't ever get me into sports.
I've been racially abused and insulted and treated like shit since I can remember, I still remember when a cute girl in my class said loudly how she would never even walk with an ugly mutt like me, I didn't even talk to her some fucks were talking to her and asking her shit about what she thought about the boys in the classroom, I was twelve.
When I was sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, it only became worse, I couldn't even kiss a girl, or hold hands with one, I still remember how a girl started to treat me nice and letting me hug her but I'm fact she was using me to do all her homework, she was fucking two guys back then.
In the university, every single guy and girl there has a bf gf, all of them move in social circles, and you are less than furniture there if you don't behave like a regular normies, which I'm not. watching them live and enjoy their youth while I was a walking corpse almost led me to suicide.
and overall, right now after enduring twenty years of misery, I've given up.
That's it, I've given up, no more trying or fooling myself with wishful lies about how life gets better if you try or any other dumb shit like ascending, I will never get a beautiful blonde with me, I will never get rich, I will never change my face or my skin or my height, it's over, from now I'm going to sit and leech my neetbucks and play videogames all day while drinking until I die of some dumb shit like overdose or something.
don't get fooled by silly lies, if you are born as a sub 5 poor ethnic manlet, that's it, there's no magical fix, it's just "wait your death"
that's it.
