It’s an on and off (ration 20:80). I have moments where I go like (eat healthy, workout, fillers etc), but that’s very short-lived. Then I go like I’m 26, a KHHV, very weird head and an ugly, extremely strange face (large, flat and thin, can barely see myself in reflections, and my mom never takes pics of me, parents never bothered to reach me about sex bc they knew I will never get it, never about girls or relationships. Sadly, and unsurprisingly they were right. My life literally feels like I’m in jail)