Serious Are you scared of the future? Were you able to cope better or worse 4 years ago?

[TheGrayWolf]

1) Yes, a lot.
2) Yes, quite.

Idk how but 4 years ago while my life was pretty much the exact same and I was still hopeless, I wasn't as hopeless as now, and copes just worked better, I was also only 23 (which seems young to me now).
Yes people/strangers still reacted negatively when they saw me.

I guess AGE is a huge thing, I hoped that in 2-3 years everything will be better (working out, surgeries etc), but now I know that none of these work for me (checked and proven).

 

[light]

1. no
2. yes ofc because i didnt have permanent anhedonia+pssd+asexuality and could jerk off and enjoy eating and video games

 

[light]

I hoped that in 2-3 years everything will be better (

cope. nothing gets better with age it only gets worse

 

[Animecel2D]

my future is empty

 

[Neucher The Kanga]

my future is empty

hopefully your future is full of money

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I'm definitely scared of the future because my life is constantly getting worse and eventually I may have no choice but to rope. And my life was better 4 years ago, it wasn't anything great but it was absolutely better.

 

[nice_try]

Nothing ever happens.
Nothing ever changes.
I live exactly the way I lived 4 years ago.
I'm a living dead, that can only be brought back to life by love, which he'll never receive.
The only thing that changes is that my body gets older and older.
Fuck. What a misery.

 

[aspiecel_11:11]

1. Of course
2. Worse, accepting it's over helped me in not putting effort in pointless shit and in looking for copes that actually kinda work

 

[stalkerKiller]

I'm not scared just depressed thinking about it.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

I'm definitely scared of the future because my life is constantly getting worse and eventually I may have no choice but to rope. And my life was better 4 years ago, it wasn't anything great but it was absolutely better.

Was it the same for you as it was for me–

For me 4 years ago was the same physically (how I look, I still live in parents' house, from the outside nothing changed) all that really happened is I got older (and can hence cope worse and worse).

Also I'm doing my second fully-online/remote degree but I absolutely hate my new university, and liked the previous one ("old" uni degree lasted 3 years). Basically I'm a "student" but have no irl contacts.

The general feeling was different too but I think that's just because I'm 27.5 now, and was 23.5 back then. Less hope, less cope.

Or did some things specifically change for you?

 

[TheGrayWolf]

Nothing ever happens.
Nothing ever changes.
I live exactly the way I lived 4 years ago.
I'm a living dead, that can only be brought back to life by love, which he'll never receive.
The only thing that changes is that my body gets older and older.
Fuck. What a misery.

Brutal, I can relate. Only things that changed for me are the university (also doing an online-degree now because of my ugliness, but I liked my previous college better – I could have gone there in-person theoretically but there's no point), and that reality has caught up with me (less coping). Other than that, my day-to-day life is the same.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

my future is empty

do you feel neutral about it or scared? idk how to feel but I tend to feel depressed about it. it can, for all intents and purposes, only stay the same or get worse.

 

[LeFrenchCel]

The future looked better in the past

 

[Animecel2D]

do you feel neutral about it or scared? idk how to feel but I tend to feel depressed about it. it can, for all intents and purposes, only stay the same or get worse.

I’m not looking forward to it, that’s all I’ll say

 

[TheGrayWolf]

The future looked better in the past

That's an intriguing statement, I agree. For me it was mostly because I was younger and could cope better ("it will get better")

 

[LeFrenchCel]

That's an intriguing statement, I agree. For me it was mostly because I was younger and could cope better ("it will get better")

Same

Tbh your post is relatable af. Mentally and physically I still feel like the same guy from 4 years ago, nothing really changed in my life... Except I'm 4 years older, graduated, still khhv and still not living on my own.

Back then, my life was already shitty but at least I was still at uni so I could have a semblance of normal life and in the eyes of my parents, I was doing something of my life. Now I'm a NEET because the job market is completely fucked for young proletarian white males, so I'm literally useless.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

Same

Tbh your post is relatable af. Mentally and physically I still feel like the same guy from 4 years ago, nothing really changed in my life... Except I'm 4 years older, graduated, still khhv and still not living on my own.

Back then, my life was already shitty but at least I was still at uni so I could have a semblance of normal life and in the eyes of my parents, I was doing something of my life. Now I'm a NEET because the job market is completely fucked for young proletarian white males, so I'm literally useless.

Exactly bro.

I started an in-person college degree, then dropped out. Then did a 3-years online degree (fully remote), now doing a second online-degree (officially "counts" the same as in-person they say). My day-to-day life didn't change noticeably – actually it didn't change at all. But inside, I changed, as I got and get older, the light at the end of the tunnel is disappearing exponentially, the feeling is just different, knowing I'll turn 28 (!!!) soon. It's hard to describe but the negative feeling is there, it got more noticeable as I got older, and more hopeless, over the years.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

Same

Tbh your post is relatable af. Mentally and physically I still feel like the same guy from 4 years ago, nothing really changed in my life... Except I'm 4 years older, graduated, still khhv and still not living on my own.

Back then, my life was already shitty but at least I was still at uni so I could have a semblance of normal life and in the eyes of my parents, I was doing something of my life. Now I'm a NEET because the job market is completely fucked for young proletarian white males, so I'm literally useless.

I feel bad and abnormal doing my degree online but can I really be blamed? I mean, it's a serious question. I'm basically a prisoner, imprisoned by my looks so that I need to face as little judgement as possible.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

Was it the same for you as it was for me–

For me 4 years ago was the same physically (how I look, I still live in parents' house, from the outside nothing changed) all that really happened is I got older (and can hence cope worse and worse).

Also I'm doing my second fully-online/remote degree but I absolutely hate my new university, and liked the previous one ("old" uni degree lasted 3 years). Basically I'm a "student" but have no irl contacts.

The general feeling was different too but I think that's just because I'm 27.5 now, and was 23.5 back then. Less hope, less cope.

Or did some things specifically change for you?

Back then, my life was pretty much the same, but I was younger and still had hope that things would eventually change, even though I didn't have friends or a girlfriend. It also didn't bother me much at the time. But now, as an adult the more time that passes the more over it feels, the less hope I have.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

Back then, my life was pretty much the same, but I was younger and still had hope that things would eventually change, even though I didn't have friends or a girlfriend. It also didn't bother me much at the time. But now, as an adult the more time that passes the more over it feels, the less hope I have.

I feel so old, especially knowing some people on here are 18-20, or even just 3 years younger than me, but I understand it's all a matter of perspective.

 

[umsure]

26, but 4 years ago I quit playing video games and developed a very strong interest in girls, but that quickly dissipated once I realized I would never be able to attract one

 

[TheGrayWolf]

26, but 4 years ago I quit playing video games and developed a very strong interest in girls, but that quickly dissipated once I realized I would never be able to attract one

Very strong interest ? Meaning what? You tried asking them out or smth?

 

[LeFrenchCel]

Exactly bro.

I started an in-person college degree, then dropped out. Then did a 3-years online degree (fully remote), now doing a second online-degree (officially "counts" the same as in-person they say). My day-to-day life didn't change noticeably – actually it didn't change at all. But inside, I changed, as I got and get older, the light at the end of the tunnel is disappearing exponentially, the feeling is just different, knowing I'll turn 28 (!!!) soon. It's hard to describe but the negative feeling is there, it got more noticeable as I got older, and more hopeless, over the years.

It's getting scarier and more depressing the closer you get to 30

I feel bad and abnormal doing my degree online but can I really be blamed? I mean, it's a serious question. I'm basically a prisoner, imprisoned by my looks so that I need to face as little judgement as possible.

You shouldn't be blamed for that, it's normal tbh

 

[TheGrayWolf]

It's getting scarier and more depressing the closer you get to 30

You shouldn't be blamed for that, it's normal tbh

Thank you

 

[SilverBullet]

Not scared of the future, ill probably become accepting of death but i was definitely better off 4 years ago. No chronic pain and was actually able to enjoy copes. Though my disorder is progressive gg so more chronic pain down the road

 

[Sonicfancel]

1. Yes. Each passing day makes the future seem worse.
2. Yes. Back then I still had the youthful delusion that I would "rise above."

 

[oldNgreycel]

Each passing year is one closer to the sweet release of death

 

[ldargoblin]

1. I'm scared of old age and all the shit that comes with it.
2. Physically I looked worse. The positive thing is that the younger you are, the more carefree you are.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

Each passing year is one closer to the sweet release of death

who's that in your profile pic?

 

[Starfish Vs Koala]

IM FUCKING SCARED KILL ME NOW HAHAHAHAHAHHAA

 

[Neucher The Kanga]

same honestly

 

[TheGrayWolf]

1. I'm scared of old age and all the shit that comes with it.
2. Physically I looked worse. The positive thing is that the younger you are, the more carefree you are.

What do you consider old age, and how old are you? I'm 27 and think I'm old, especially when comparing it to me when I was 23 (and younger of course).
I'm 27 and the opposite of care free, I don't have a reason to not be.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

same honestly

it's brutal, to not only not know what lies ahead but that the future is most likely grim.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

IM FUCKING SCARED KILL ME NOW HAHAHAHAHAHHAA

 

[oldNgreycel]

who's that in your profile pic?

There was a post a while back about a guy getting kicked out of a restaurant for being ugly. I gave him the leaf headband to cover his fucked up eye

 

[TheGrayWolf]

IM FUCKING SCARED KILL ME NOW HAHAHAHAHAHHAA

 

[UglyVirgin]

The future will be horrible. Islam is spreading like a cancer, and this vile creatures want to kill everyone who doesn’t believe in MuH aLlAh. I hate them so much. Jews will continue to run everything, if you don’t have money you’ll be fucked and a slave. The world economic forum will enslave us soon and lock us into camps with rationed food etc

 

[TheGrayWolf]

There was a post a while back about a guy getting kicked out of a restaurant for being ugly. I gave him the leaf headband to cover his fucked up eye

oh wow that's brutal. my whole head/face are fucked up, you couldn't cover anything up on me.
once at a restaurant when I was like 15 (I'm 27 now) a waiter upon seeing me (with my family, wanting to eat there), lead us to a very hidden table).

 

[TheGrayWolf]

1. Yes. Each passing day makes the future seem worse.
2. Yes. Back then I still had the youthful delusion that I would "rise above."

I feel ya. How old are you? If you don't wanna specify are you like late 20s, early 30s etc?

 

[oldNgreycel]

oh wow that's brutal. my whole head/face are fucked up, you couldn't cover anything up on me.
once at a restaurant when I was like 15 (I'm 27 now) a waiter upon seeing me (with my family, wanting to eat there), lead us to a very hidden table).

Brutal.

 

[light]

The future will be horrible. Islam is spreading like a cancer, and this vile creatures want to kill everyone who doesn’t believe in MuH aLlAh. I hate them so much. Jews will continue to run everything, if you don’t have money you’ll be fucked and a slave. The world economic forum will enslave us soon and lock us into camps with rationed food etc

 

[Pancakecel]

4 years ago I was drinking everyday to cope, had a job. Now im neet but don't drink so much. I still feel the same levels of misery, if not more than I did at that time tbh. Sleeping is the only thing I look forward to.

The only future I can see is continuing to be a neet hermit, and just repeating the same empty days over and over again.

 

[ldargoblin]

What do you consider old age, and how old are you? I'm 27 and think I'm old, especially when comparing it to me when I was 23 (and younger of course).
I'm 27 and the opposite of care free, I don't have a reason to not be.

Mid 20s. I consider 30+ lowkey old, might sound retarded, but this is now almost the new normal, given the gen z and their cult of youth. But of course I meant a later age when health problems arise. I had the unpleasant experience of observing elderly people and their miserable lives, it's a fucking nightmare.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

4 years ago I was drinking everyday to cope, had a job. Now im neet but don't drink so much. I still feel the same levels of misery, if not more than I did at that time tbh. Sleeping is the only thing I look forward to.

The only future I can see is continuing to be a neet hermit, and just repeating the same empty days over and over again.

Bro, except the drinking part,
you’re speaking out of my mouth. I’ve never been drunk, do you recommend? Only problem is that it’s short term.

 

[Pancakecel]

Bro, except the drinking part,
you’re speaking out of my mouth. I’ve never been drunk, do you recommend? Only problem is that it’s short term.

I'd say it's worth doing a few times a month maybe, which is what I do now

 

[DeadOnArrivalCel]

I'm decades into this shit you never come to terms with it.

I think the fear is the fear of being driven to suicide and the attempt failing or it being extremely painful. We are so checkmate that we should be permitted a painless quick tidy exit. It would make this hell easier to cope with. But they'll never allow it in case too many slaves start trying to escape. And they enjoy the thought of us suffering the horrendous isolation and rejection that we do suffer.

 

[land of oblivion]

1) Yes, a lot.
2) Yes, quite.

Idk how but 4 years ago while my life was pretty much the exact same and I was still hopeless, I wasn't as hopeless as now, and copes just worked better, I was also only 23 (which seems young to me now).
Yes people/strangers still reacted negatively when they saw me.

I guess AGE is a huge thing, I hoped that in 2-3 years everything will be better (working out, surgeries etc), but now I know that none of these work for me (checked and proven).

I stopped thinking about the future since I learned that the biggest assholes win, not the best ones, and they are also the ones who make history by the way. It's over

 

[TheGrayWolf]

I stopped thinking about the future since I learned that the biggest assholes win, not the best ones, and they are also the ones who make history by the way. It's over

Brutal reality. But I can't stop thinking about it, I just can't help it.

 

[RechargedSamsung]

1) Yes, a lot.
2) Yes, quite.

Idk how but 4 years ago while my life was pretty much the exact same and I was still hopeless, I wasn't as hopeless as now, and copes just worked better, I was also only 23 (which seems young to me now).
Yes people/strangers still reacted negatively when they saw me.

I guess AGE is a huge thing, I hoped that in 2-3 years everything will be better (working out, surgeries etc), but now I know that none of these work for me (checked and proven).

1.yes
2. Yeah the anime video games and covid lockdowns was fun i felt somewhat hopeful i wasnt really blackpilled i more just a mix of blue and redpilled