Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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Real relationships are never like that. At best Chad and Stacy may be infatuated with each other for a while, but once the honeymoon phase is over, no relationship is like that.
Maybe the following is the autism in me talking, but I want a kind of weird relationship. Like where the girl is obsessed with me, like in that meme overly attached girlfriend. And I'd be equally as attached to her. I know people say "haha you just think you want it but you don't, it would be awful in reality", but I've thought about it a lot and that's exactly what I want. And I know that with my particular brand of autism I like to pour my heart and soul into something if I finally find something that I love. So I want to love a woman very much with a fiery passion and for her to love me equally as hard. To care about every little thing about each other, to live this tough life together till the end etc...
And yet that will never happen. Even if such love does exist, it's probably 1 in a million. And I can't even get a normal relationship, or even a normal life like having a social circle and stuff. It just will never happen, and yet my brain keeps taunting me. Like maybe some girl will pop out of thin air and be impressed by my hardcore depression that lasted for so many years, and my cynical nihilistic wit lmao. What a retarded thought, I know it's retarded and yet my brain keeps putting salt on the wound.
Maybe the following is the autism in me talking, but I want a kind of weird relationship. Like where the girl is obsessed with me, like in that meme overly attached girlfriend. And I'd be equally as attached to her. I know people say "haha you just think you want it but you don't, it would be awful in reality", but I've thought about it a lot and that's exactly what I want. And I know that with my particular brand of autism I like to pour my heart and soul into something if I finally find something that I love. So I want to love a woman very much with a fiery passion and for her to love me equally as hard. To care about every little thing about each other, to live this tough life together till the end etc...
And yet that will never happen. Even if such love does exist, it's probably 1 in a million. And I can't even get a normal relationship, or even a normal life like having a social circle and stuff. It just will never happen, and yet my brain keeps taunting me. Like maybe some girl will pop out of thin air and be impressed by my hardcore depression that lasted for so many years, and my cynical nihilistic wit lmao. What a retarded thought, I know it's retarded and yet my brain keeps putting salt on the wound.