Personally I think a second wave is coming.
We can only hope, I think I'll actually pray to God tonight and ask for this, I haven't prayed in a while
I'm kind of split when it comes to two things:
1. Weathmaxxing and life going back to normal (I become rich - hopefully)
2. Something happens like a freak mutation and Corona just starts wiping the human race out
I want the last one the happen more than the first one though
After you masturbate, and you've cleared your head of your base physical desires, and you think about what you want in life, that's what you really want deep down
I do want success, but more than that, I just want everything to end, I would kill any amount of people and die a hundred times just to see society truly collapse once, and fall into ruin
I just want to see that before I die, I could die in peace if I could witness this, sometimes I feel for this more strongly than I want to live
I'm just waiting for something to happen tbh, because I'm not in a situation to cause anything to happen, but if a situation presented itself, I would gladly give my life to see it happen
Sometimes even breathing seems like a chore these days, but I keep pushing forward, I push the thoughts the end it all in the back of my mind, hoping that #1 can happen, but more than that, so that I don't miss out on #2 happening