I’ve been alone all my 24 years of life and i see a post of a woman on forever alone subreddit saying she’s so sick of being alone and follows up by saying many guys message her and she’s not interested in them, but claims to suffer from loneliness. These are the kind of posts that makes my blood boil because soyciety will take her seriously compared to a man thats actually suffering from chronic loneliness. This is exactly my reason for not taking women seriously when they say they are lonely because their standards are usually the cause. I’ve been on dating sites since high school, which was 10 years ago and still haven’t matched with a single soul regardless on swiping right on everyone, this sapped me of my self esteem and sucked all the life out of me because no one wanted me. On top of that, there are only 2 people that I consider friends but i notice they want to end the friendship and i have to reach out to them all the time and bargain a lot to keep them as friends because they think am a worthless human being. Both of which are women in their 50s. It’s like I’ve never had anything positive come from my interaction with women. They magnify any flaw i have and make me feel like i deserve to be alone. My roommate lives with his girlfriend, he’s never been alone, I hear them talk, i hear them have sex, i see them go out for walks while i have to converse with myself in a cubical room to maintain my sanity. I feel like am in prison, the only genuine positive conversation i can have is with my thoughts. A male high school classmate of mine that was suffering from chronic loneliness died a few months ago from heart failure and nobody even cared to pay their condolences except for a handful of people, including me. I think about this classmate a lot, I felt so bad when i heard he died, he never got to have his first kiss, he was a virgin, he was also rejected by girls all his life, and died never experiencing any of those. Maybe the reason i think about him a lot is because I’ll be seeing him soon, idk, i feel like am not going to last long like this. The other thing is, why don’t the government just kill the baby when they find out it’s male to end his future suffering. At least we wouldn’t have to live through this nightmare of a gynocentric society.
