I dream of being a special forces operator or something of the kind, capable, strong, the grey man, useen in everyday life but terrifying when it matters... I dream of a war to cleanse my country, and I dream of winning it. Wading in blood but necessary. I dream of killing people. I dream of things I could not do. I dream of having my country back and making everyone who have spent their time destroying it thoroughly unemployed and in some cases incarcerated. I dream of seeing all these normies who have been fucked over my the establishment and the media get deprogrammed so you can have a normal goddamn conversation with them again, the women especially. I would like to catch all foregin rapists and torture them to death in public and hang them from railway bridges for everyone to see because this is my daydream and I can be a hypocritical as I want here, thank you very much. I want to watch genocidal jihadis and gangsters cry and beg for mercy in vain when they are dragged away to death camps in the coldest inlands in the country to dig holes in the tundra until theyír shitty lives expire. I dream of watching the news and being able to breathe out and think that the nightmare is over for this time. I dream of getting our honor back. I dream of there being less people in the world so that I could save all the animals that are threatened with extincion. And then I want the to clone back some woollen haired rhinos and mammoths and put in those reserves as well because those animals are awesome and I want to see them.
I dream of having an intelligent and very submissive wife I can hold down and fuck in the morning before I go to work. I dream of being so fucking alpha that she just gives in to watever whim I have. I dream of four beautiful, healthy kids that I can teach important lessons in life.
I dream of having something to teach them. I dream of making heaps of money, by my own talent and hard work and the stuff id buy... I dream of being technical, an engineer or something else that is genuinely constructive that you can make money off.
I dream of having a nice house with a garden and a grenhouse with a peach tree in it, because fresh peaches are so rare up here and they are so, so very different from the imported ones you buy in a supermarket. And I want my wife to love it even more than I do and take care of it so I don't have to. I dream of being pampered by her. I dream of having a large dog. An ovcharka, a really well trained one because I dream of being good with training difficult dogs. I dream of being a gigachad and have any foid I point at let go of everything she is doing to follow me into the nearest public toilet and let me take her if I feel like it. I dream of abundance. I dream of having my ego massaged by all and everyone and still have the charachter to not let it inflate too much.
I dream of important, successful, intelligent people wanting to be friends with me. I dream of the stuff they would invite me to, and the stuff I could tell them to make them genuinely impressed and interested in me. I dream of having something to give to the world. I dream of having better stories to tell. I dream of being genuienly likeable. I dream of being better at everything than others, having unique skills that make me special, important and crucial. I dream of being insanely productive and have absolute control over my life. I dream of having proven myself worthy once and for all so that I never have to doubt myself again. Of having blood brothers for life. Of going trekking with them for weeks in Siberia. I dream of being more than others and still be admired for my humbleness.
But living a drab patheitc life in a country that is not killing itself ould be enough to be honest.
