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CircumcisedClown
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One of the copes that has kept me sane (not actually sane, I’m neurotic) is listening to music really loud on night drives and fantasizing about better lives than mine. It’s been my go to for years when my mind starts to slip too deep.
Recently I’ve had an ear worm for “Summerboy” by Lady Gaga.
View: https://youtu.be/BHTCCrGCeIY?feature=shared
I like to imagine she’s singing about me, and I’m living an actually good life, and I was born a person who’s worthy of love. As my mental state deteriorates, my imagination gets more vivid, making the cope even more effective. Sometimes my fantasies sink into my dreams, and it’s almost as good as the real thing (that thing being a life that doesn’t suck).
Anyways, the older I get, the more frequently my sanity fluctuates, so I’ve been engaging in late night cope drives more often. Sometimes it will be the same song on repeat as I drive for hours.
Anyone here do something similar?