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Everything I know is from old books/magazines, I am not up to date when it comes to things. In most cases (like politics/etc.) I don't care if I am up to date anymore, I watch no TV and read no newspapers.
I do nothing anymore. In the last half of a decade I didn't change one thing about myself/my views and didn't find anything new (or bother with finding something new); as a teenager I read much and built myself an opinion about almost everything, now I don't do that anymore, I still have certain views, but I don't read anything new about them or seek to expand/change them, I also don't care anymore about them on a deep level or try to defend them with facts or something else, my discussions about them are most of the time ironic and not serious.
I am also not a reader in general, the only thing I ever consumed/read were some magazines/books about fish/other animals (most of the knowledge there is anachronistic anyways nowadays) and I hate the fact that I am nowadays so impatient, weak in will/discipline and burnt out, I just wish I could have longer lasting discipline/interest in something, but that isn't possible anymore without an outside force (and even then my discipline becomes weaker and weaker). My knowledge is (if existent) anachronistic and doesn't reflect the current state of affairs - I also don't know how I will ever catch up or if I even have the interest in catching up.
I feel like a fossil that is lost in time. Want to go back a few years ago, back then everything seemed already intolerable, but it was objectively and subjectively far better than the grey nothingness nowadays. I also want to renew the suscriptions of my old magazines which I read, but I am too lazy to do so (the subjects are extremely interesting, but I cannot bother myself with the fact it has become a logistic hell to order them). Am existing in a bubble, a kind of time capsule. The world has moved along without me.
I do nothing anymore. In the last half of a decade I didn't change one thing about myself/my views and didn't find anything new (or bother with finding something new); as a teenager I read much and built myself an opinion about almost everything, now I don't do that anymore, I still have certain views, but I don't read anything new about them or seek to expand/change them, I also don't care anymore about them on a deep level or try to defend them with facts or something else, my discussions about them are most of the time ironic and not serious.
I am also not a reader in general, the only thing I ever consumed/read were some magazines/books about fish/other animals (most of the knowledge there is anachronistic anyways nowadays) and I hate the fact that I am nowadays so impatient, weak in will/discipline and burnt out, I just wish I could have longer lasting discipline/interest in something, but that isn't possible anymore without an outside force (and even then my discipline becomes weaker and weaker). My knowledge is (if existent) anachronistic and doesn't reflect the current state of affairs - I also don't know how I will ever catch up or if I even have the interest in catching up.
I feel like a fossil that is lost in time. Want to go back a few years ago, back then everything seemed already intolerable, but it was objectively and subjectively far better than the grey nothingness nowadays. I also want to renew the suscriptions of my old magazines which I read, but I am too lazy to do so (the subjects are extremely interesting, but I cannot bother myself with the fact it has become a logistic hell to order them). Am existing in a bubble, a kind of time capsule. The world has moved along without me.