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ionlycopenow
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I went through all of school a virgin. I was never invited to any party. I was invisible. I didn't exist. In senior year, some hole in a forced group assignment asked me "wait you've been here this whole time?" In genuine disbelief. I'm literally invisible.
Due to lifelong depression and anxiety I have also become quite stupid by now, low attention, low drive, even worse because as a virgin your "lust for life" literally dries up as well.
I'm a failure pretty much every where. I can't even just sit and rot in peace, I also have to deal with day long anxiety/panic attacks over knowing how shit and pathetic my existence is.
Some days, I have to just lay down in bed for hours and wait until the urge to rope goes away.
how do you cope with knowing that not only are you a complete failure in society, but also in BIOLOGY itself (you're literally trash that has absolutely nothing to offer to anyone, not even hard biology). Literally a failed life form.
Due to lifelong depression and anxiety I have also become quite stupid by now, low attention, low drive, even worse because as a virgin your "lust for life" literally dries up as well.
I'm a failure pretty much every where. I can't even just sit and rot in peace, I also have to deal with day long anxiety/panic attacks over knowing how shit and pathetic my existence is.
Some days, I have to just lay down in bed for hours and wait until the urge to rope goes away.
how do you cope with knowing that not only are you a complete failure in society, but also in BIOLOGY itself (you're literally trash that has absolutely nothing to offer to anyone, not even hard biology). Literally a failed life form.