Some 2 or 3 years ago my ugliness got me neurosis and heavy anhedonia. At the time however it made my eating habits even worse since I ate usually very late during the day, often fast-food and lots of sweet and unhealthy food. After some time I realized I got some weight and decided that the last thing I would ever want is to end up being fat fuck. Since normal food doesn't do much for me and I pretty much resigned from eating all the tasty but unhealthy and high-calorie food and after some year and a half I became quite thin - on 6'0 height I have 134lbs. My muscle outline is in heavily pathetic state and I can pretty much see most of my torso chest bones. For some time I hoped that lowbodyfatmaxxing is going to get my face more outlined (especially cheekbones) but now I just look like impoverished rat-faced subhuman fuck. There is no winning against genetics. I even tried recently to eat some tasty-unhealthy food but the way I deem it is that it's just another cope like fapping. Feels good for a moment
but gets you miserable and self-hating afterwards. I don't know how it will influence my health and in general basic endurance in future but my anhedonia is so strong that I lost any will to change it on longer run. It's all so fucking pointless.
but gets you miserable and self-hating afterwards. I don't know how it will influence my health and in general basic endurance in future but my anhedonia is so strong that I lost any will to change it on longer run. It's all so fucking pointless.
