its not you trust me. Its hostile vibes people give you. Think back to when you met another ugly person, or maybe someone who was an inferior race, like some curry serving you at macdonalds or something. That feeling might not have been there then, or lessened. It also happens when you are in a less competitive environment, i.e. you are surrounded by old people online cuz its like idk 2pm on a wednesday in the supermarket.
When there are more young people around, the hostility goes up x1000.
I used to tell myself for years, the anxiety was just in my head from being "narcissistic" and thinking everyone looks at me etc. It's bullshit. It's just people being openly hostile and passive aggressive, and your physical body can pick up on that vibe. If you want an example of that, read this old thread:
This is one of my first blackpills. Long but worth the read. Tl;dr Huge difference in the way people treated him after the surgery. Background: This was posted in 2012., long before incels gained exposure, so nobody can say he posted it to push incel agenda. It's a post from a forever alone...
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TLDR, its a repost from a forum thread from 2012 where someone accidentally got cosmetic surgery in a package deal for a health surgery. He says, he feels no hostility now, people dont reject him when he tries to talk to them etc.
Another example where we accidentally got a repeated experiment situation is this guy:
I want to tell you about something that has cock-blocked me my whole life. I had the misfortune of being born with a health disorder that causes my face and body to bloat intermittently throughout the day. This means that I can appear very attractive one moment, but hideous the next...
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This guy has a gut-disorder where he experiences extreme facial bloating when eating certain foods, to the point where he looses like all his SMV after drinking milk and shit. He says the difference is fucking bonkers, people just fucking hate you.
Just think about this, why do you even know that you are ugly? Because you compare yourself to the average person in your environment. And thats also why others know you are ugly, because you stand out from the average in negative way. If you looked normal, you wouldnt know you are ugly and people would not treat you like that, so you wouldnt be self-conciouss about it. IMO, try this: Go to a place with tons of ugly people, like a nursing home (idk, visit grandpa) or some other place and see if you still feel socially anxious.
Btw this is why white people always say like OMG EVERYONE HERE IS SO NICE in travel vlogs - yes you banana, you went to country of little brown midgets, which worship you, no shit.