Anyone else agoraphobic? Apparently according to the diagnostic criteria, I am.

[Deleted member 7448]

I didn't think I was agoraphobic since there's a bunch of other stuff wrong with me. And I thought it was for other reasons that I don't leave the house or I just do it when I absolutely have to but with extreme anxiety.

But for example, I haven't left the house since March. Maybe only twice or so at the store near the house, but I haven't left even for that in 2 or 3 months. And I haven't felt the need to leave the house, this has been heaven for me. I even lost a few fillings and one tooth keeps getting infected, my face swelling, and I don't go to the dentist cause I just don't like going out and doing things (got an excuse because of coronavirus). And I keep taking antibiotics like once every 2 months when it starts swelling again. Though it's starting to swell now and if it starts hurting again I'll go cause this shit is getting dangerous.

Anyway, maybe I'm not agoraphobic, but I have extreme anxiety and am stressed by going outside for a lot of other reasons. In the past I was just avoidant and introverted and lazy with no energy. But I guess in the 6th grade humiliating things happened and I had to switch school, and ever since I've been more and more afraid of going out, out of deadly fear of seeing somebody from my old school. Then after a while, unrelated to this, I became severely depressed and that hasn't really stopped ever since. But also, when I was an alcoholic for 2 years, other traumatic/humiliating events happened, and now I'm not only afraid of ever encountering people that saw me or heard of me being drunk, but I also contacted 1 or 2 people from my highschool through facebook back then, and now I'm deadly terrified of encountering anybody from highschool. Like there was this one guy I bumped into, he wanted to shake my hands and I was so full of anxiety and surprise that I froze and simply kept walking not even looking at him. I still cringe thinking about that.

Well, maybe I'm agoraphobic or maybe I'm not. One thing I know for sure, is that I hate going outside, it's very stressful for me because I may encounter people who used to know me, and also I am very lazy and have no energy, so everything outside is just a chore and a pain in the ass anyway.

 

[Ping And Pong]

Sounds brutal, I don't think I have this.

 

[Deleted member 21230]

For me it's the opposite, I would love to go out and make new experiences but I can't

 

[Deleted member 7448]

For me it's the opposite, I would love to go out and make new experiences but I can't

Maybe you can join a club or something? Though that might be a rich country thing, I can't think of any clubs or something like that in my area. Unless you count learning a sport or something.

 

[Deleted member 21230]

Maybe you can join a club or something? Though that might be a rich country thing, I can't think of any clubs or something like that in my area. Unless you count learning a sport or something.

Nothing I can think about, also most certainly normaloids wouldn't accept me so it's useless

 

[PaperSkin]

I think I am. I have to go outside more often then that though. Not by choice but because of school and work obligations

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Nothing I can think about, also most certainly normaloids wouldn't accept me so it's useless

Yeah I know what you mean, there's a million ways to meet people but I can't see myself doing any of them. All I like to do is rot in bed, literally anything else drains my energy and constantly makes me think how I'd rather be at home laying in bed with my laptop. Been like this since I was a kid.

But on the off-chance you're not like me, is there anything in this list that would work for you? https://getthefriendsyouwant.com/meet-new-friends/

 

[Deleted member 21230]

Yeah I know what you mean, there's a million ways to meet people but I can't see myself doing any of them. All I like to do is rot in bed, literally anything else drains my energy and constantly makes me think how I'd rather be at home laying in bed with my laptop. Been like this since I was a kid.

But on the off-chance you're not like me, is there anything in this list that would work for you? https://getthefriendsyouwant.com/meet-new-friends/

Nothing of this works, when you're ugly normies just don't want to be with you. We are forced to rot in loneliness

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Nothing of this works, when you're ugly normies just don't want to be with you. We are forced to rot in loneliness

I'd call you defeatist but I'm the same way, it's just that my reasons are different. I'll never actually try. Even when I'll have to get a job, I'll do the same thing I did since I was a kid. After school back then, after work now: rushing straight home. And rotting. Since I was a kid the moment I got to school, or the moment I had to leave the house with my parents for something, that second I'd wish I was back home. I'd always be rushing home, anxious to get home. I'll do this till the day I die I suppose.

 

[Deleted member 21230]

I'd call you defeatist but I'm the same way, it's just that my reasons are different. I'll never actually try. Even when I'll have to get a job, I'll do the same thing I did since I was a kid. After school back then, after work now: rushing straight home. And rotting. Since I was a kid the moment I got to school, or the moment I had to leave the house with my parents for something, that second I'd wish I was back home. I'd always be rushing home, anxious to get home. I'll do this till the day I die I suppose.

I like home but I also like to go out, only that in neither of these places there's anything for me. I'm not defeatist, I've learned the lesson too many times: normies don't want to interact with ugly males and would rather see them die