If normiemaxxing makes you exhausted it is not worth it to try to fit in
At this point, I'm pretty much a basementcel. I haven't left my basement in the last three weeks, and what's worse is that it isn't any easier to cope with the stress at home than it is outside. My mom has lost her mind. She's constantly gaslighting me or always in a bad mood due to her denial about my younger brother's autism. I kid you not, I currently hear him screaming and running around upstairs, and this is normal behavior for him. My mom also randomly insults me, calling me sick or disgusting. As for my dad, he doesn't really talk to me. He just gives me this disappointed look all the time. And if we do talk, he's usually just angry at me for something, like having a dirty room.
Fucking real, stopped playing vidya because losing made me go bERserk and my mom would yell at me. Only cope rn is weedmaxxing but I'm running out of neetbuxx so it's not looking good, but then again neither am I
Yeah, something happens to me. It's impossible to maintain a hobby when everything you do has to be kept to yourself.
I feel you brocel, even when i'm alone I feel like I'm being watched, judged and observed by an audience of normies. It's so hard to be myself without feeling an immeasurable amount of cringe and regret. My mind is constantly dominated by dERision. I just move from one thing to another hoping to extract any amount of dopamine I can to feel satisfied.
I build LEGO WW2 models form a site called brickmania
I used to make those lego stop motion vids on my 3DS back in like 2010-2011, it was such an enjoyable hobby. I should definitely get back into it.
