I really enjoy silence and being alone.
Growing up, I would get up early and make myself tea in the kitchen.
Then I would sit there for an hour and just read or do nothing.
Not even listen to radio.
Sometimes I would also make breakfeast for my younger siblings and pack their lunchboxes.
At some point, my mom started working again.
Compared to me, my mom is like Taz, the Tasmanian Devil from Looney Tunes.
She is loud.
She dominates.
She makes her territory very clear by making as much noise as possible and expanding her sphere of influence.
When she shows up its like a cluster bomb has been dropped.
I remember the day, I was sitting there in the kitchen doing my ritual, drinking tea.
Then, I hear a noise in the basement where my parents sleep.
My mom comes up, naked.
Thats another thing, she is always naked.
Like I said, domination shit, animal IQ.
She will start doing 10 things at once.
Maximum Noise, radio on, start coffee machine, brush teeth, wake up siblings, get dressed...
everything at once, ok?
So for example, she is half naked in the living room, folding laundry while brushing her teeth and listening to the radio in the kitchen at the same time.
It is fucking mental.
The first time she interrupted my routine like that,
I went to my room and started crying.
Like actually crying with tears.
I need my quiet time.
And when I tried to explain it to my parents they would just say "you have enough time, stop complaining"
But I need 100% silence to recover.
Even if a person is in another room, I cant cope.
It is like people radiate stress.
I can feel someones vibe the second they come in the door, even if I am somewhere else in the house.
I can tell how they feel by the way they walk or the sound of them taking off their shoes.
Or when my dad would put his keys down, I can tell when he is pissed by the amount of energy he is using.
So i have to be completely alone to relax.
No other way.
TL;DR
I need my peas and quiet and I am sensitive to even minor noise and peoples overall energy levels.
So I cant relax unless I am in complete silence without people around.
Anyone else like this?
Growing up, I would get up early and make myself tea in the kitchen.
Then I would sit there for an hour and just read or do nothing.
Not even listen to radio.
Sometimes I would also make breakfeast for my younger siblings and pack their lunchboxes.
At some point, my mom started working again.
Compared to me, my mom is like Taz, the Tasmanian Devil from Looney Tunes.
She is loud.
She dominates.
She makes her territory very clear by making as much noise as possible and expanding her sphere of influence.
When she shows up its like a cluster bomb has been dropped.
I remember the day, I was sitting there in the kitchen doing my ritual, drinking tea.
Then, I hear a noise in the basement where my parents sleep.
My mom comes up, naked.
Thats another thing, she is always naked.
Like I said, domination shit, animal IQ.
She will start doing 10 things at once.
Maximum Noise, radio on, start coffee machine, brush teeth, wake up siblings, get dressed...
everything at once, ok?
So for example, she is half naked in the living room, folding laundry while brushing her teeth and listening to the radio in the kitchen at the same time.
It is fucking mental.
The first time she interrupted my routine like that,
I went to my room and started crying.
Like actually crying with tears.
I need my quiet time.
And when I tried to explain it to my parents they would just say "you have enough time, stop complaining"
But I need 100% silence to recover.
Even if a person is in another room, I cant cope.
It is like people radiate stress.
I can feel someones vibe the second they come in the door, even if I am somewhere else in the house.
I can tell how they feel by the way they walk or the sound of them taking off their shoes.
Or when my dad would put his keys down, I can tell when he is pissed by the amount of energy he is using.
So i have to be completely alone to relax.
No other way.
TL;DR
I need my peas and quiet and I am sensitive to even minor noise and peoples overall energy levels.
So I cant relax unless I am in complete silence without people around.
Anyone else like this?
