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It's probably due to a mix of things.
Firstly, I've quit energy drinks for the second(or third?) time this year, I disliked spending so much cash on it: My family also has a history of heart issues on both sides, so it would probably be best for me to avoid.
But in reality, it's probably due to the fact I'm 22, still KHHV, and also have reminisced over the past lately: At any given point during my day, I can get hit with a dwam, taking me back to any memory I have from when I was around 14ish till now. In some, I just think of how awful, brutal, and even traumatizing some of the shit I wen through was: In others, I just get angry & upset as to how I perhaps didn't try enough, how I maybe even "missed a chance" in any number of aspects(socially & educationally), how I could have done x thing differently, etc.
This has been one of my biggest issues, I try my best but it's so hard to live in the moment.
Firstly, I've quit energy drinks for the second(or third?) time this year, I disliked spending so much cash on it: My family also has a history of heart issues on both sides, so it would probably be best for me to avoid.
But in reality, it's probably due to the fact I'm 22, still KHHV, and also have reminisced over the past lately: At any given point during my day, I can get hit with a dwam, taking me back to any memory I have from when I was around 14ish till now. In some, I just think of how awful, brutal, and even traumatizing some of the shit I wen through was: In others, I just get angry & upset as to how I perhaps didn't try enough, how I maybe even "missed a chance" in any number of aspects(socially & educationally), how I could have done x thing differently, etc.
This has been one of my biggest issues, I try my best but it's so hard to live in the moment.