I once she rejected me once, I was still so in love with her to a delusional level that I attempted to dedicate 3 months of self improvement and looksmaxxing before I even know what looksmaxxing was. I was working out, taking care of myself, and I even tried nofap for those three months which I was successful with. At the end of that summer which I had spent self improving in hopes of winning her over, I saw her again at another family get together at this festival in my home city. I was a puddle of piss the entire morning before driving over there and my stomach was churning. When I got there I was completely struck with a deep sense of high inhibition and anxiety. I thought of this one girl the entire summer and there she was, standing in front of me. My family didn’t think twice about seeing her because she was just family in their eyes, but I was panicking. I had a gift I was building up the courage to give to her, it was a drawing I made for her, and I figured that since I was too high inhib to even have a full conversation with her, I at least needed to give her this drawing as a final attempt to confess my feelings. So I go up to her and tell her to meet me upstairs since we were in a private hall for hosting parties. When we were in the upstairs hallway, I gave her the drawing after confessing my feelings for her. She just stared at me coldly, giving me a condescending sympathetic smirk before apologizing to me for not feeling the same way I did. When I tried to articulate my feelings to her I was a stuttering mess and she didn’t even understand where I was coming from. At the end she took the drawing and the rest of that night was pure pain. The moment I went into my room that night I bawled my eyes out. All of the effort I put into this girl was in vain, and my highest form of love was most likely thrown into the trash after she took the drawing home. I don’t forget that night. August 25th, 2019. It was my first dosage of true blackpill, and it was only just the beginning. My life has only gone downhill since that rejection. Here is what I had given her.
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Men are the romantic gender.