- April 9th: everytime i go out i get sick when i see foids walking around with their chad boyfriends. holding hands in public as if they want to shove it in my face that i will never be able to do that. all ive ever wanted is to feel the warm hands of a woman anywhere on my body. itd be enough to just hold hands. but i cant imagine how thatd feel. but chads get to do whatever they want. they get to get handjobs from those same hands. and much more than that. everytime i see a couple all i can think about is how chads just get to touch foids however they want. i will never be able to do that. i might be able to pay for it. but its not the same when i know theres no love behind it.
- May 21st: recently i thought i finally met a foid who will undrestand what im going through. who will love me, or atleast like me. we had two conversations. it may not seem like alot but it was the most ive talked to a foid in years. in the second one, she brought up her boyfriend. my hear shattered. ive never felt so alone. i was so close. so close to what ive wanted for so long. i genuinely want to end that bitch and her fag boyfriend. theyre probably fucking right now. theyd never know how it feels to be me.
- These 2 experiences happened on the days I decided to leave my house since ive been a NEET for the last several years. They serve as a reminder as to why its important we continue to HATE women and why they'll never view me as a sufficient partner. just waiting until the day I get the courage to do it.
