HissingAtTheVoid
Greycel
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- Nov 7, 2021
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4 years ago, it was my last year in High School, and after many years of relentless bullying, social alienation, being an outcast, having the lowest status possible, being ignored and treated like a sub-human by almost everyone at school due to my shitty genetic lottery luck, I managed to experience something resembling to "acceptance", "being left alone", "Fair treatment by peers" and the most impressive thing of all "Being kind of desired sexually by an Eastern European looking 6/7 Foid"...
Okay, before you accuse me of being an "Fakecel" Bear with me! Let me elaborate.
Till this day, I'm still a fucking Virgin...
"The Eastern European looking "6/7" Foid" was displaying a lot of "sexual attraction indicators" towards me, such as:
I felt attracted to her too but also at the same time I find the situation infuriating and I felt a lot of distrust towards her, I felt blood boiling anger, emptiness, confusion, anxiety, dissociation...
I'm quite certain that the "Eastern European looking "6/7" Foid" whore only got attracted to me because:
But deep down inside I knew that if I ever allowed her to get to know me, she would have been turned off by my "Asperger's", "Weird Philosophical Beliefs", "Extreme negative emotions I felt and especially back then in 2017", "low social status", "Not having a Car", "Being Broke", etc...
I became deeply depressed after realizing such harsh truth about my existence, "I will never be accepted and desired and needed by neurotypical normies " ,so I tried to commit suicide a week before the senior graduation. But sadly, I failed, and I'm still here after 2 failed attempts.
...For now, the suffering continuous, Hissing AT The Void it's not done yet.
Have you ever had a similar experience?
Do you think that there is hope for someone like me (Autismcel, Mentalcel, Traumacel) to "ascend"?
Okay, before you accuse me of being an "Fakecel" Bear with me! Let me elaborate.
Till this day, I'm still a fucking Virgin...
"The Eastern European looking "6/7" Foid" was displaying a lot of "sexual attraction indicators" towards me, such as:
- Staring at me, A LOT and making eye contact with me a few times with a sweet smile on her face, and on top of that she was "BLUSHING" like an anime girl. lol
- Almost every day, sitting next to me and acting in a funny and nervous way.
- Laughing at my bad jokes, when I was not even talking to her.
I felt attracted to her too but also at the same time I find the situation infuriating and I felt a lot of distrust towards her, I felt blood boiling anger, emptiness, confusion, anxiety, dissociation...
I'm quite certain that the "Eastern European looking "6/7" Foid" whore only got attracted to me because:
- I was 20 years old and she was 17 years old, I was one of the oldest student in that High School we went together.
- I gymmaxxed a lot.
- I was faking confidence, acting like an overly aggressive fool.
- Maybe she had lower standards in terms of looks compared to the vast majority of foids? I consider myself to be a "6ish" at my peak.
- Her "boyfriend" was always sitting next to her while in classroom and for some bigotry reason...
- She is one of the most promiscuous whores I have ever meet. (Not worth it for a meaningful relationship) ...
But deep down inside I knew that if I ever allowed her to get to know me, she would have been turned off by my "Asperger's", "Weird Philosophical Beliefs", "Extreme negative emotions I felt and especially back then in 2017", "low social status", "Not having a Car", "Being Broke", etc...
I became deeply depressed after realizing such harsh truth about my existence, "I will never be accepted and desired and needed by neurotypical normies " ,so I tried to commit suicide a week before the senior graduation. But sadly, I failed, and I'm still here after 2 failed attempts.
...For now, the suffering continuous, Hissing AT The Void it's not done yet.
Have you ever had a similar experience?
Do you think that there is hope for someone like me (Autismcel, Mentalcel, Traumacel) to "ascend"?