diogenes
It's Not OvER
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I tried to anime cope today. To say the least, I only got a few minutes into the first episode of a title.
I couldn't bear the pain of watching an anime with teens. Teens developing their social skills, making relationships, friendships, learning and progressing in lilfe. And teen love. I am getting old and anime brought back the painful memories of my teenage years. 4chan (especially r9k), World of Warcraft, League of Legends, sluthate, lookism. This was my youth, the most golden most precious time of life was spent inside a dark room in front of a computer. All because I was born AUTISTIC and UGLY. Meanwhile more than 75% of my classmates in middle school were already having sex. Meanwhile they had friends, and more girlfriends, and more teen sex. Meanwhile they partied, they made lifelong bonds. I had nothing, my teenage years are a void.
This is our life boyos, this is it. We can NEVER GO BACK. We will never experience those things. It never gets better, it gets worse.
The timepill (which includes the teenpill) is the most brutal. It broke my heart. This isn't fair. Yesterday was St. Elliot's Feast of the Day of Retribution, and the older I get the more I understand him. The closer I feel to Elliot. What he felt, what he saw in his past and his future. I am just like him, as I'm sure many of us are. We are just like him. We are him. He is us.
I personally understand Elliot Rodger and his decision to go about ending his life.
It's fucking over.
I couldn't bear the pain of watching an anime with teens. Teens developing their social skills, making relationships, friendships, learning and progressing in lilfe. And teen love. I am getting old and anime brought back the painful memories of my teenage years. 4chan (especially r9k), World of Warcraft, League of Legends, sluthate, lookism. This was my youth, the most golden most precious time of life was spent inside a dark room in front of a computer. All because I was born AUTISTIC and UGLY. Meanwhile more than 75% of my classmates in middle school were already having sex. Meanwhile they had friends, and more girlfriends, and more teen sex. Meanwhile they partied, they made lifelong bonds. I had nothing, my teenage years are a void.
This is our life boyos, this is it. We can NEVER GO BACK. We will never experience those things. It never gets better, it gets worse.
The timepill (which includes the teenpill) is the most brutal. It broke my heart. This isn't fair. Yesterday was St. Elliot's Feast of the Day of Retribution, and the older I get the more I understand him. The closer I feel to Elliot. What he felt, what he saw in his past and his future. I am just like him, as I'm sure many of us are. We are just like him. We are him. He is us.
I personally understand Elliot Rodger and his decision to go about ending his life.
It's fucking over.