I left the incel community for a couple months (i never stopped being an incel) thinking there might actually be hope. I started consuming more and more bluepilled propagranda- I wanted it to be real. These last couple months i have been coping so hard but i have come to the realization there is no “looksmaxxing” for your subhuman flaws jfl. People will treat you like shit no matter how NT you try to act or how much clothes you buy the world is ALWAYS against ugly people. I had a seasonal job for a while. I had applied for a permanent full time position but they only gave me that and said if i was a good worker they would keep me afterwards. I was early every single day, stayed over when they needed me to, and was always willing to go the extra mile. I was genuinely convinced i was staying until the fat bitch chink foid manager tells me, “ you were a great worker but really we dont need more staff right now maybe you can apply next year.” Whatever doesn’t matter until i go in a couple weeks later to return my uniform and other equipment and see they kept another guy who got hired after me (same position). Literal suifuel seeing 6’0 chad who sucked at his job and was late almost everyday still being there. The worst part is everytime he would screw up that chink whore would always flirt with him and make it a joke but any minor thing i had to ask a question with it was eye rolling and borderline yelling. This is one of the many things that happened which made me return. I think i have more peace in just accepting reality than trying to force it into something it’ll never be.
