it was a few months ago when I was going to a local park at 11 pm to work with my kettlebell and maybe some cardio
While i was walking I saw a couple Filming them self dancing and hugging one another
They were around my age the guy was tall and handsome with a shiny white sweet shirt
And the girl had amazing red hair Which was illuminated by the moon light
And there I was in my torn running shoes wearing an old cheap hoodie and caring a
14 kg kettlebell
I felt like an animal looking at them from far away
I wanted to lash out attack the guy beat him up ruin his perfect face break his long bones
I wanted him to call me out to see me to want to fight me so I can act on my fantasy but he did not
He was simply enjoying one of his Right
The right to be loved
Something that is never for me to have
I had never question myself so hard
what the f$#& you doing with your life I said
why do keep training getting punched taken down kicked for who who are you ever going to protect
why do you keep studying why why for who nobody cares. even when somebody is friends with me it is cuz they are gaining something and I'm just being used
That was to this day the saddest work out ever
While i was walking I saw a couple Filming them self dancing and hugging one another
They were around my age the guy was tall and handsome with a shiny white sweet shirt
And the girl had amazing red hair Which was illuminated by the moon light
And there I was in my torn running shoes wearing an old cheap hoodie and caring a
14 kg kettlebell
I felt like an animal looking at them from far away
I wanted to lash out attack the guy beat him up ruin his perfect face break his long bones
I wanted him to call me out to see me to want to fight me so I can act on my fantasy but he did not
He was simply enjoying one of his Right
The right to be loved
Something that is never for me to have
I had never question myself so hard
what the f$#& you doing with your life I said
why do keep training getting punched taken down kicked for who who are you ever going to protect
why do you keep studying why why for who nobody cares. even when somebody is friends with me it is cuz they are gaining something and I'm just being used
That was to this day the saddest work out ever
