An old guy black pilled me when I was 17

[I_just_exist]

It was the 1970's. I was always an ugly child. I had protruding front teeth, bug eyes, I was tall for my age but so thin that I looked anorexic. All through school I was bullied for my looks by boys and the girls. I didn't dare ask anyone out, the total rejection and humiliation would've been too much to bear. So in addition I was called queer and a bender. In spite of this I suppose I was still blue pilled, hoping against hope that one day I might have a girlfriend ?
I left school at 16 with a handful of lowish grade qualifications. I found work as a butchers assistant at 17 in the local supermarket.
On my first day I was introduced to the team and one old guy took me to one side and told me i may as well kill myself now to save myself a lifetime of pain and rejection. He said he'd met dozens of men like me in his life and none of them had found happiness.
I was a bit shocked and told my parents who went ballistic about it and told me there was nothing wrong with me and that girls valued personality and sense of humour over looks.
Of course he was absolutely right and 38 years later I sit here every night alone in my little flat, a string of rejections and humiliations behind me. A few exceptionally painful ones that put me under the care of the local mental health trust.
How right he was, and how wrong my parents were.

 

[TheSecondComing]

so you're saying you're 55 then, mr. greycel?

 

[I_just_exist]

Indeed I am. About the only thing going for me is I still have a reasonable head of hair.

 

[Monk of Failure]

Peace be upon that prophet.

 

[Rassimov]

Indeed I am. About the only thing going for me is I still have a reasonable head of hair.

How could you not get one ugly girl with hair game? Hard to believe.

 

[Rippa]

Indeed I am. About the only thing going for me is I still have a reasonable head of hair.

Damn, I feel you bro, I couldn't imagine living like that for 55 years straight tho, seems worse than anything a female has ever experienced.

 

[Monk of Failure]

How could you not get one ugly girl with hair game? Hard to believe.

Hypergamy, in a word.

 

[I_just_exist]

How could you not get one ugly girl with hair game? Hard to believe.

I've got hair but it's always been wispy and thin. The hairstyles in the 80's ( which should have been my prime years ) were very outlandish. Think Simon Le Bon new romantic style ? My hair frankly looked ridiculous and despite regular trips to the barber they could do nothing with it.

 

[TheMinimalist]

It was the 1970's. I was always an ugly child. I had protruding front teeth, bug eyes, I was tall for my age but so thin that I looked anorexic. All through school I was bullied for my looks by boys and the girls. I didn't dare ask anyone out, the total rejection and humiliation would've been too much to bear. So in addition I was called queer and a bender. In spite of this I suppose I was still blue pilled, hoping against hope that one day I might have a girlfriend ?
I left school at 16 with a handful of lowish grade qualifications. I found work as a butchers assistant at 17 in the local supermarket.
On my first day I was introduced to the team and one old guy took me to one side and told me i may as well kill myself now to save myself a lifetime of pain and rejection. He said he'd met dozens of men like me in his life and none of them had found happiness.
I was a bit shocked and told my parents who went ballistic about it and told me there was nothing wrong with me and that girls valued personality and sense of humour over looks.
Of course he was absolutely right and 38 years later I sit here every night alone in my little flat, a string of rejections and humiliations behind me. A few exceptionally painful ones that put me under the care of the local mental health trust.
How right he was, and how wrong my parents were.

Right...

 

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

Maybe it was yourself from the future .

 

[Deleted member 18214]

God this is deep tbh. Its like an origin story or something.

 

[taurazi]

You need to pass that on to a new generation. Through online or irl. You need to be the blackpilled old ugly guy.

 

[Billowel]

It was the 1970's. I was always an ugly child. I had protruding front teeth, bug eyes, I was tall for my age but so thin that I looked anorexic. All through school I was bullied for my looks by boys and the girls. I didn't dare ask anyone out, the total rejection and humiliation would've been too much to bear. So in addition I was called queer and a bender. In spite of this I suppose I was still blue pilled, hoping against hope that one day I might have a girlfriend ?
I left school at 16 with a handful of lowish grade qualifications. I found work as a butchers assistant at 17 in the local supermarket.
On my first day I was introduced to the team and one old guy took me to one side and told me i may as well kill myself now to save myself a lifetime of pain and rejection. He said he'd met dozens of men like me in his life and none of them had found happiness.
I was a bit shocked and told my parents who went ballistic about it and told me there was nothing wrong with me and that girls valued personality and sense of humour over looks.
Of course he was absolutely right and 38 years later I sit here every night alone in my little flat, a string of rejections and humiliations behind me. A few exceptionally painful ones that put me under the care of the local mental health trust.
How right he was, and how wrong my parents were.

who was this old man?

 

[littlemanhikicel]

You were judged by your looks 50 something years ago. It's truly over since a lot of time ago.

 

[truthpill]

It's over for many men, but many men do not realize that

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

It was the 1970's. I was always an ugly child. I had protruding front teeth, bug eyes, I was tall for my age but so thin that I looked anorexic. All through school I was bullied for my looks by boys and the girls. I didn't dare ask anyone out, the total rejection and humiliation would've been too much to bear. So in addition I was called queer and a bender. In spite of this I suppose I was still blue pilled, hoping against hope that one day I might have a girlfriend ?
I left school at 16 with a handful of lowish grade qualifications. I found work as a butchers assistant at 17 in the local supermarket.
On my first day I was introduced to the team and one old guy took me to one side and told me i may as well kill myself now to save myself a lifetime of pain and rejection. He said he'd met dozens of men like me in his life and none of them had found happiness.
I was a bit shocked and told my parents who went ballistic about it and told me there was nothing wrong with me and that girls valued personality and sense of humour over looks.
Of course he was absolutely right and 38 years later I sit here every night alone in my little flat, a string of rejections and humiliations behind me. A few exceptionally painful ones that put me under the care of the local mental health trust.
How right he was, and how wrong my parents were.

nice story

everyone used to consider those creepy bitter blackpilled old men to be...total lunatics who don't know what they're talking about

not anymore lmao, better figure out how to get millions of dollars so that a 30 year old woman will allow you to simp for her

 

[I_just_exist]

who was this old man?

He was one of my colleagues. Probably about the age I am now ? Quite a successful man, married with a son, living in a 4 bedroom house in a nice part of town. He used to say "You'll never have what I've got"

 

[Deleted member 14805]

@FrustratedWhiteMale Looks like you're not the only grandpacel here.

As for the topic, I gotta say that's a really brutal blackpill to receive and at such a young age to boot. And considering where you are now OP, it illustrates the point that looks trumps all, no ifs ands or buts about it and sadly this will never be acknowledged since normies and everyone else will gaslight you, shame you, insult you, use BS anecdotal evidence and just plain ignore you.

OP have you thought about getting a sexdoll?

 

[azakhan]

Holy shit I had no idea people that old are here.
Btw do you regret your life? Or was it good apart from lonelyness?

 

[Emba]

Welcome to the grandpa section greycel! 57yo here.

 

[Deleted member 18912]

Good to have you old man.
Welcome to the Forum.

 

[I_just_exist]

@FrustratedWhiteMale Looks like you're not the only grandpacel here.

As for the topic, I gotta say that's a really brutal blackpill to receive and at such a young age to boot. And considering where you are now OP, it illustrates the point that looks trumps all, no ifs ands or buts about it and sadly this will never be acknowledged since normies and everyone else will gaslight you, shame you, insult you, use BS anecdotal evidence and just plain ignore you.

OP have you thought about getting a sexdoll?

To be honest my Libido is pretty low due to my age and long term use of SSRI anti depressants. It'd probably be a waste of money in my case. I did have a healthy libido during my prime years but with no outlet I used to get frustrated and smash up stuff in my parents house.
I'd rage at them that it was their fault that I was ugly. That they were not genetically compatible etc. My Dad was quite good looking and when I started work at some places his exes would say to me " Oh my god, I can't believe you're **** Son" "You look nothing like him"
My Mum was quite attractive - probably about a 7/10.
I did have uncles who would probably be incels in this day and age. They had big ears and crooked noses etc. I guess those genes were passed on to me ? At least I won't be passing mine on to cause pain and suffering to the next generation.

Welcome to the grandpa section greycel! 57yo here.

Cheers

 

[Antorian]

Maybe he was a prophet of the blackpill.

 

[I_just_exist]

Holy shit I had no idea people that old are here.
Btw do you regret your life? Or was it good apart from lonelyness?

It's not been all bad, I have good physical health, I learned to drive and have always owned a car - nothing fancy though. I cope by visiting the coast off season, away from the busy towns and walking miles and miles. I do feel sad when I pass a couple and wish I was in that situation. It's a basic existence but I realise I'm better off than many people.

 

[azakhan]

It's not been all bad, I have good physical health, I learned to drive and have always owned a car - nothing fancy though. I cope by visiting the coast off season, away from the busy towns and walking miles and miles. I do feel sad when I pass a couple and wish I was in that situation. It's a basic existence but I realise I'm better off than many people.

Good for you. What are your other copes? Work? Videogames? Drugs? Escapism?

 

[Braincels_boyo]

He knew. Maybe it was a blackpilled boyo who travelled back in time to tell you that it's over.

The blackpill is ancient. It goes back to wall-art of neanderthal women fucking tall, strong males while the incel neanderthal goes extinct

 

[JustinSane]

Bluepillers: 100

I'm guessing they saw the ..."when I was 17" in the title.

 

[BlkPillPres]

It was the 1970's. I was always an ugly child. I had protruding front teeth, bug eyes, I was tall for my age but so thin that I looked anorexic. All through school I was bullied for my looks by boys and the girls. I didn't dare ask anyone out, the total rejection and humiliation would've been too much to bear. So in addition I was called queer and a bender. In spite of this I suppose I was still blue pilled, hoping against hope that one day I might have a girlfriend ?
I left school at 16 with a handful of lowish grade qualifications. I found work as a butchers assistant at 17 in the local supermarket.
On my first day I was introduced to the team and one old guy took me to one side and told me i may as well kill myself now to save myself a lifetime of pain and rejection. He said he'd met dozens of men like me in his life and none of them had found happiness.
I was a bit shocked and told my parents who went ballistic about it and told me there was nothing wrong with me and that girls valued personality and sense of humour over looks.
Of course he was absolutely right and 38 years later I sit here every night alone in my little flat, a string of rejections and humiliations behind me. A few exceptionally painful ones that put me under the care of the local mental health trust.
How right he was, and how wrong my parents were.

I wouldn't have even made it to 30 without raping, I don't how so many of you guys still restrain yourself by the morals and laws of a society that has rejected you, if society isn't going to provide me with fair means to attain what I want, then I'll take what I want and society be damned, I'll make them kill me after I've had my fill

It's a basic existence but I realise I'm better off than many people.

This is the most common and illogical cope there is - "somebody has it worse than me so I should be happy", by that logic doesn't somebody also have it better than you, so shouldn't you be sad, its just a selective application of logic, it can go both ways, ones happiness should be judged independently, not on the basis of what others have or doesn't have, its about what you want, saying - "there's some homeless guy with one leg out there" doesn't make your life any better

 

[Deleted member 18975]

You need to pass that on to a new generation. Through online or irl. You need to be the blackpilled old ugly guy.

 

[Deleted member 21219]

I wouldn't have even made it to 30 without raping, I don't how so many of you guys still restrain yourself by the morals and laws of a society that has rejected you, if society isn't going to provide me with fair means to attain what I want, then I'll take what I want and society be damned, I'll make them kill me after I've had my fill

If sex is what we're after, then problem is easily solved for most of us. There are many goodlooking escorts. I personally cope using escorts, cant really comment on raping since ive never dont it.

It's not been all bad, I have good physical health, I learned to drive and have always owned a car - nothing fancy though. I cope by visiting the coast off season, away from the busy towns and walking miles and miles. I do feel sad when I pass a couple and wish I was in that situation. It's a basic existence but I realise I'm better off than many people.

Dayum dude. That was brutal. You think youd find similar goys like you in mgtow? I see a lot of coping old guys there.

 

[I_just_exist]

I wouldn't have even made it to 30 without raping, I don't how so many of you guys still restrain yourself by the morals and laws of a society that has rejected you, if society isn't going to provide me with fair means to attain what I want, then I'll take what I want and society be damned, I'll make them kill me after I've had my fill




This is the most common and illogical cope there is - "somebody has it worse than me so I should be happy", by that logic doesn't somebody also have it better than you, so shouldn't you be sad, its just a selective application of logic, it can go both ways, ones happiness should be judged independently, not on the basis of what others have or doesn't have, its about what you want, saying - "there's some homeless guy with one leg out there" doesn't make your life any better

You're right, it doesn't make my life better. I have extremely dark episodes of depression especially as I'm entering my twilight years. I've lost one parent, most of my aunts and uncles, I see guys my age taking their grand kids fishing or to football for example. It gets progressively lonelier the older one gets.

As for raping someone I understand what you're saying, but I get away with absolutely nothing in life and I'd undoubtedly have been caught and ended up in jail picking up soap in the showers and being someone's bitch. Being an incel rapist in prison is a fate too horrible for me to comprehend.

 

[zangano1]

that man was saint blackops2cel himself

 

[Deleted member 6214]

He was one of my colleagues. Probably about the age I am now ? Quite a successful man, married with a son, living in a 4 bedroom house in a nice part of town. He used to say "You'll never have what I've got"

And what was the reason he gave for you "never having what he had"? Just that you were ugly?

 

[BlkPillPres]

I get away with absolutely nothing in life and I'd undoubtedly have been caught and ended up in jail picking up soap in the showers and being someone's bitch. Being an incel rapist in prison is a fate too horrible for me to comprehend.

1. Maybe you get away with nothing because you don't put much thought into the planning of it

2. If you get caught and don't want to be violated in prison, isn't that the perfect excuse to now kill yourself, we all have these reasons we use to keep from killing ourselves even though we want to, wouldn't that realization just strip you of any excuses and allow you to finally be free, well that's the way I see it

Nobody is keeping you alive, I'd rather live as a lion for 2 more years than to live decades as you have as a doe just to keep existing

Also why haven't you just paid for sex, that's what I did (in my 20's) when I thought enough was enough, how did you make it to 50 and not do that

So we don't even have to go as far as rape, what about paying for sex, that was an option. Let me guess, you'd have gotten caught and arrested because "you get away with absolutely nothing in life" lol, just seems like excuses for you to not take risks and pat yourself on the back for "pushing forward", living a pathetic existence and not trying to change it is not "pushing forward", its just another form of cowardice

 

[iblamemyself]

Brutal, just brutal. Welcome here, oldcel.

 

[ThirdWorldcel]

I was a cute child but I started developing subhuman features at puberty. I started to notice how very different is to live as a normal child compared to hoy different is to live as an ugly teen

 

[bimmercel]

Indeed I am. About the only thing going for me is I still have a reasonable head of hair.

mogs me through stargates and back tbh

 

[HoustonOilers]

the turest of cels

 

[bimmercel]

Maybe he was a prophet of the blackpill.

st. supermarketcel?

 

[ordinaryotaku]

Hypergamy, in a word.

 

[I_just_exist]

I'm guessing your parents are gone. Do you just live your entire life alone now? You said you feel sad when you see a couple. I'm 31 and hope I'm still not still jealous/sad at your age. I would hope I would just get used to it and accept it.

My Dad's been gone since 2012. My Mum's still alive. She was only 18 when I was born.
I don't feel jealous as such when I see couples together, I did when I was younger, As I say I'd go home and smash up the furniture and kick holes in the doors. My Dad would then kick s*it out of me for doing so. He'd tell me to go and have a w*nk to get rid of my frustration. Easy for him to say. He was very popular with girls

And what was the reason he gave for you "never having what he had"? Just that you were ugly?

Probably yes. I also had very little money as my parents were on low incomes and I only worked in a shop.

Good for you. What are your other copes? Work? Videogames? Drugs? Escapism?

I work as a truck driver. I used to drive buses but got reported a lot by women passengers for "being creepy" One rang the depot and accused me of looking up her skirt in the interior mirror ! It was focused at head height and I had to keep checking it to see if anyone was getting up to alight from the bus. So trucking suits me better. On my own, radio on and seeing the countryside for free.
Never done drugs, occasionally drink alcohol but have to be careful as I can't afford to lose my license.

1. Maybe you get away with nothing because you don't put much thought into the planning of it

2. If you get caught and don't want to be violated in prison, isn't that the perfect excuse to now kill yourself, we all have these reasons we use to keep from killing ourselves even though we want to, wouldn't that realization just strip you of any excuses and allow you to finally be free, well that's the way I see it

Nobody is keeping you alive, I'd rather live as a lion for 2 more years than to live decades as you have as a doe just to keep existing

Also why haven't you just paid for sex, that's what I did (in my 20's) when I thought enough was enough, how did you make it to 50 and not do that

So we don't even have to go as far as rape, what about paying for sex, that was an option. Let me guess, you'd have gotten caught and arrested because "you get away with absolutely nothing in life" lol, just seems like excuses for you to not take risks and pat yourself on the back for "pushing forward", living a pathetic existence and not trying to change it is not "pushing forward", its just another form of cowardice

Believe it or not when I was around 20 I did drive up to the red light district in my nearest city. It was risky as the residents were doing street patrols and passing car numbers to the police.
I approached a prostitute and she got in my car. Asked why I didn't just try and get a girlfriend ? As I was far too young to be using prostitutes. She started to give me hand relief but it was all over very quickly.

There was no internet in those days and I didn't have a clue where to find a higher class escort or the money to pay for one. Yes I could afford a car but it was 15 years old and falling to bits.

I drove home crying and feeling ashamed that I had to do this ? whilst most guys got it for free. It wasn't just about sex, I wanted a relationship - going to the cinema with someone, not being on my own at family weddings etc.

 

[ForlornOne]

that man was saint blackops2cel himself

St.Blackops2cel travels in time to his most loyal believers to teach them about truth of the world, blackpill itself.

 

[RandomGuy]

Good to have you old man.
Welcome to the Forum.

 

[Deleted member 19546]

How could you not get one ugly girl with hair game? Hard to believe.

Did you read the post? Bug eyes, overbite, classic mouthbreathercel. It's OVER over.

 

[Joker]

girls valued personality and sense of humour over looks.

why do parents so often too this lie to their obviously incel children?

 

[Deleted member 15737]

At my second job I ever had, I had just turned 17 and a coworker said to me “If I wasn’t already married, I’d go MGTOW” and I had to ask him what MGTOW was. He was about 43 years old. After reading about it, it made sense and I always felt rejected and isolated and read a lot of /r9k/. After a year of Redpill coping, I swallowed the blackpill.

So in a way, he redpilled/blackpilled me.

 

[Tallhover]

You need to pass that on to a new generation. Through online or irl. You need to be the blackpilled old ugly guy.

Not an heroing but growing old to be a wise prophet who blackpills the youth and eases their pain is a pretty comfy thought.

 

[LitVirgin]

It takes a mentally strong person to accept the truth and continue to live with it. But what also bothers me is why would they bully you for your looks but at the same time call you gay for not having anyone obviously your just ugly not gay

 

[starystulejarz]

out of nowhere there are so many 50years oldcels but not a single one gave us a proof that they are this old

 

[I_just_exist]

out of nowhere there are so many 50years oldcels but not a single one gave us a proof that they are this old

I can only give you my word. What proof do you need ?

It takes a mentally strong person to accept the truth and continue to live with it. But what also bothers me is why would they bully you for your looks but at the same time call you gay for not having anyone obviously your just ugly not gay

No idea really. The Girls at work were the worst. They'd ask "How's your bum for love bites" ?
Looking back on it all now it's obvious why I'm so mentally fucked up.