Whenever I think about taking a girl's virginity, the only thing I can associate with is blood and pain. I know it's only about a few drops of blood and it doesn't feel so terribly, but still I get sick every time I think about it. It must be some kind of psychological illness. I'd be totally fine feeling pain while having sex, I might have some masochist tendencies, but simply I can't even have erection when I think about my partner suffering. Again: I know this isn't unbearable for a girl, and it's absolutely not about a durable bleeding, but I can't associate with anything else but suffering. I'm not even attracted to young girls at my age because of this feeling. I feel better when there are virgin girls around me, because they're not that arrogant and annoying like the sluttier ones. I definitely respect them more than those sluts at my school. But as a sex partner I'd rather choose a prostitute or some bitches from my school who have been fucked by chads several times. I know for the most of you it sounds weird. Even I know it's not normal but I can't help about it. I'm 19 years old, I've been attracted to my teachers and my mother's girlfriends a lot of times, actually more than to girls at my age. Of course if a young girl offered sex to me, I'd accept it without considering.
