After blackpill and this forum + FAP, I became ultra awkward and shizo

[kantero]

Fuck. I can't live now. I don't know what fap do to my organism, but i relapsed and fapped 4 times for 3 days and i'm fucking nervous all time. I can't control my emotions, im very awkward when i go anywhere, i look at the ground, thinking about how i walk, how i look when i walk, start stress and stress even more because i shouldnt think about it and i start walk like idiot and then its even worse.
I hate it, nofap for me is like injection for diabetics, because my mental diseases are getting even worse if i fap. I hate laughing at jokes, i hate that i can't accumulate hatred in me and that i laugh from those jokes. That i high inhib deep inside, because i think about everything x2.
Fuck, how can i cure it? I soon go to therapist and i want to try valeriana pills or glycine to calm myself + exercises. Fuck fuck fuck, i feel insane

 

[Amaterasu]

have you tried weed or alcohol

 

[kantero]

have you tried weed or alcohol

Im still not 18 y.o. - im not free to buy it myself and it actually make my heart beat much faster and overall doesn't feel good at morning. But it's if i will drink a lot.
Weed... i tried the weak one, just laughed and said random funny things. It's illegal, but i maybe will ask my friend to get dealer and maybe will buy another one. But it costs money, which i don't really have.

take a breath and stop browsing this site for some days.

Yes, i thought about it, but this forum now even more for me than games etc. Im into it and i like being here, but it really makes me overconcentrated on toxic things.

I also have nervous tic from playing games, so i need the rest, but i don't know what to do else

 

[kantero]

meditate or take a rest dude, it's not necessary to do something just relax in a ventilated place.

Meditation, is it hard to study? I will open balcony and ventilate it, but i always keep it opened and sit in front of PC. Do you mean i need do nothing but breath "fresh" air?

 

[Kointo1]

I am the same as I was before this forum. I haven't changed mentally. I hated social interactions, and I create awkwardness where ever I go in real life.

 

[kantero]

I am the same as I was before this forum. I haven't changed mentally. I hated social interactions, and I create awkwardness where ever I go in real life.

I had it too, but it became x10 stronger and i just reached that point when i can't be with it

 

[Kointo1]

I had it too, but it became x10 stronger and i just reached that point when i can't be with it

I haven't gotten any worse.

 

[kantero]

Do you mean i need do nothing but breath "fresh" air? yes, even learning how to breath properly have some benefits. you should always go to the doctor if you feel really bad tho.

Its just i should tell him all my story about girls blackpill inceldom and only after that say that it would be great to start at least from making me calmer. I procrastinate.
Besides, i read about breathing - breath with your stomach and after chest - is it correct? Or something else?

 

[Hunter]

keep up on nofap for 90 days. 90 days is said to be a full reboot/rewiring of the brain. thats what im going to do.

 

[kantero]

keep up on nofap for 90 days. 90 days is said to be a full reboot/rewiring of the brain. thats what im going to do.

You know, man, i also like not against trying this, but i don't believe it will solve much. It's more in my head and will nofap rewiring still work after i do it and fap again? Are you really think you're going to stop fapping at least with your fantasy forever?

 

[Hunter]

You know, man, i also like not against trying this, but i don't believe it will solve much. It's more in my head and will nofap rewiring still work after i do it and fap again? Are you really think you're going to stop fapping at least with your fantasy forever?

my sex drive is low as fuck. first time i did nofap i relapsed voluntarily on day 28 because i wanted one good last fap. also im pretty sure it will work because before i started fapping i was completely normal, i started halfway through 13 after that everything went to shit and i royally fucked up my teen years.

 

[Weeb]

Stop fapping and pick up an incel hobby like knots

 

[kantero]

That's not a good idea,talking with a normie about the black pill could send you to a ward. You need to know how to spread the black pill but in a "soft way", don't do it if you are not NT.
it's correct. tbh i have no tried this but sometimes the fresh air makes me feel better when i have anxiety or stress. anyways don't doubt about the importance of proper breathing.

I suppose he won't send me to ward, because he doesnt work for government and he is private therapist