I'm going to sound pathetic, im 16 years old, and i started listening to Ado in 2021, i found the Ussewa Giga Remix and that taked me to the original song. I started to listening to her songs and i liked them more with the pass of time, so i started to search more about her and i feel a sensation watching at her clips that its closer to the way that feels being close to the person you like, i feel nervous and happy like she was in front of me but i never felt that feeling before.
I dont haved much friends in elementary school, i received bad treats and hurting comments from my classmates and girls maked fun of my physic they made me feel ugly, i have much traumatic memories being there. that doesnt get better in high school, i dont remember making any friend there and i felt like people dont want to be close to me. i recently haved a bad experience in my new high school (preparatoria here in México) that made me cry and leave. I was treated like a shit all my life, and i feel like always will be the same, it doesnt care what i do. but listening to Ado makes me very happy, i feel more attracted for her with the pass of time, i love her voice, personality and i dont care about the physic, she is the best person in the world for me, i would do anything for her.
But i feel frustrate and sad at the same time because i know is just a platonic love and i've never be able to be with her, i dont feel attracted to girls in my school and i dont remember being so attracted to a girl before and that feeling gets worst with the time, im dying for her.
Im not much different than that post of that japenese stalker i made days ago. I am the same looser. And its hard to handle for me. I dont know what to do. ¿someone passed a similar experience? (sorry for my bad english)
